So I’ve officially told the Head Administrator at the forum that who’s Anime and Manga section I oversee that I’m stepping down. Mainly because I’ve become too busy outside with work and programming, and a social life (which is weird); however, I’ve never really gotten a long well with a lot of the staffers there. Mainly because they spam a lot, and I guess it is a habit I picked up from here, but I really can’t stand spam. That and a lot of the staffers are annoying. I’m not bashing them (he’s probably reading this blog), it just wasn’t the right right for me. But hopefully I’ve had a good tenure while I was on their staff.

But one thing troubles me, why are some people on anime websites crazy? The drama, and the spam, and the utter foolish sometimes.

Ah this makes me miss the forum here. While the activity was not always the highest the people were at the very least rational.

I’ve put off doing my homework for Gay and Lesbian Studies for a while, and now it’s beginning to pile up. I need to a two blogs, a paragraph each–which just makes the fact that I haven’t done it even worse, because it isn’t much work at all and the topics are really simple.

Why am I doing this. It’s so stupid.

Early last semester me and my dear friend Shari bought tickets to see Spring Awakening, winner of the Tony’s best musical for 2007, which we absolutely loved, even though overall it was a very depressing musical. And after all the theater is suppose to well…gay. It was a different kind of musical than the ones I’m used to watching, Rocky Horror, the Forbidden Zone, etc; however, it was different experience. It is based off of a German play by the same name.

The play tells the story of a group of teens that are going through that adolescence in Victorian Europe. Their parents, teachers, neighbors–basically all adults–refuse to tell the children anything about sex or love; even though the teens want to know–which is very typical of the Victorian Age. We explore each of the children’s lives and their naive sense of what love is. Melchior, the “lead”, is the rebel who knows more than all of the other teens and they look up to him for his knowledge of the subject of sex.

Now even though the teens are not told what love or sex is, they are drawn to each other, and for some of them it works and for others it ends badly. The teens really are victims of Love as they cannot control who they love or really understand why, they are just drawn to it. And even though they do not what they are doing–though they know when it is not love, as two of the girls are sexually abused–they know they must do it.

So I want to stick around here for a while now, and not going and coming, like I used to. And luckily I think I have found an anchor that will keep me here. I’m currently taking Gay and Lesbian Studies at the university, and it is taught by a Professor who teaches in the Communication and Journalism Dept. and as part of the course we need to maintain a blog.

And while I have another blog on blogger (the theme isn’t as nice) I figured I would write these here, so that I have to be in two places at once.

So with that I start, my first assignment is to write an entry about love in popular culture. Don’t ask.

It’s been a long time, far too long, my old buds from x111.com. I’m really glad that I remembered my password–mainly because it is the same one I use everywhere, so not being creative might actually be a good a thing. Who knew.

I’ve missed you guys a lot, this was is such a cool place. It’s where I got my start working on forums. There is so much to get to so I’ll save the semantics for later.

Personally:

Well I am now a senior in college, about to graduate in May (though I will have to take a couple summer courses to get all of the credits needed for my degree). I’m graduating with a Bachelor’s of Arts in European History Degree, by the way. I’m planning on taking a year off to work and figure myself out, and calm down, before I tackle graduate school. (My mother is very worried that I might never go back, but I know I have to, you cannot get very far with a European History degree, especially as a Bachelor’s Degree.) I’ve already picked out my schools: Oregon State University, University of South Carolina, Florida State University, and a couple others, maybe Bowling Green if I can muster it; I’m going into a the Higher Education / Student Personnel Program. (It’s a very long story, worthy of it’s own post.)

Which means come September I have to find a place to life and a job to sustain that place with. I’m nervous, but at the same time very existed. It’s that rush of not knowing what is going to happen. I’m sure I can find a job somewhere, I’m not really picky about where I live. (I’ve always loved Bette Milder’s apartment in Beaches.) Still it is a long process, with unfortunately many foreseeable “Sorry, positioned filled.” Oh well, that’s life, I guess.

But before the shit really hits the fan, I’m going well. I’m a Resident Assistant at the university, so I oversee 42 college students and make sure they don’t die on the university’s watch and do various other chores in the residence hall–we do not call him dormitories anymore. I’ve also taken up some community service work, not mandated by the state, just optional. I’m the Volunteer Coordinator for a non-profit that has a site based in at the University. It a nice job, pays okay, but I have to step up my game just a bit in there this semester.

I’m loving Boston, I moved since the last time I posted, really long ago, I know, I’m sorry. I’m actually now just across the Boston Commons. The university pays for my housing, which I could not afford on my own. It’s like $15,000, second highest in the entire country! The city life is great, it sucks that I’m not 21 as yet, but that will all come along shortly. XIII, you will like this, in honor of the vaderland I’ve decided to go with a Orange Party, in honor of Queen Beatrix. Do you like?

Let us see, what else is there…

I’m still single, which I’m okay with, I think I have Chroniculas Singularis, chronically single, it’s a medical condition. Treatment in the works. Just kidding. The guys in Boston, the guys at my school, to be precise, are not exactly the catch of day, or if they are, they are already with someone. I feel as if I am in the desert looking for much needed water, except there are others, faster, smarter, better looking, also looking for water and finding it much more quickly than I.

Still, I’m hanging with friends and doing crazy stuff while I can, before I have to be a full adult and pay for bills. I realized that I really need to spend more times with those friends, because I’ve been losing touch with many, unintentionally, but still. I don’t want to be the guy that is forgotten.

Let’s see in the Internet department, I have sold my soul to google. Honestly, I have the sweatest iGoogle homepage on the planet, from comics to Pandora, and even the very useful TV Guide, I never have to leave it…and I don’t.

I’ve also been made the Head Moderator over at another anime website, which I stumbled into and got hooked on, called animeleague. It’s okay, people there spam way too much though. I feel as if one of X’s old public bannings is much overdue there.

Alright that’s pretty much boring me in a nutshell.

What’s going on with you guys? X I see you reproduced. Congrats! I also see the forum disappeared. Which is Okay the blog is much better and you liked it a lot, clearly. I fell out of my chair laughing at the review of Grysis (sp?).

Alright so I just ran from the Rec Hall to run into the computer lab to write this (silly) blog. I hate vending machines! I don’t have any food in my fridge and I’m terrible hungry so I decided (against my better judgement) to get some snacks from the vending machines. It ate my quarters! Like $3 worth! All I wanted was Doritos and Cola, is that is hard to ask for! Gosh. It just sucked up the quarters in the cola machine and didn’t give it back, and when I placed money for the Doritos it did that evil thing were it looks like it’s going to fall down but it doesn’t!

Grrrr!

It’s so sad how pathetic I get around guys. Really it is, it’s like the stuff reality TV Shows are made of. There’s this one guy and for whatever reason I’m still crushing on him. I don’t know why it is but when I have a legit crush on some guy it last a while. It’s like I can’t get him out of my mind. I can just be chilling in the office and out of the blue (<-what does that even mean?) I go and check his facebook picture. And before you start thinking I’m a total stalker–I’m only about 30%. We have talked before. And how can I remember that because he told that we can be friends. Amazingly I remember because later that night I got so drunk woke up in my friends apartment fixed my tie and left. Good times, good times!

I mean I don’t know my I still crush on him so much. I’ve seen more handsome/sexy guys over the summer. And I’m not saying that to coax myself out of it. He (the guy in question) is sexy, don’t get me wrong, but he’s not that sexy. But still I don’t know why I like him so much. Okay, maybe he’s not too sexy but he’s so adorable! Sometimes I wonder why I had to ever meet him. It’s not like I’ve done naughty things with him in mind (okay maybe once) but I want to go on a date with him once.

Ugh boys suck! What should I do?

So this week I find out that my university’s finicial aid isn’t coming through any time soon. So I’m pretty close to leaving school for a semester and coming back (hopefully) in the spring. I’ve applied for loans, but I’ve already been turned down for one. It’s kind of discouraging, especially because I’ll lose so much if I have to leave. I’ve already told the admistrators at the University that I work with that I might have to leave. So I’m going to be busy making preparations if worse comes to worse. It just sucks because I’ll lose my Resident Assistant position for the year and have to re-apply again.

I did lots of crying when I went home this week, because I didn’t even want to think about it. I screamed at a few people and got really upset, but in the end I realized that it’s out of my hands. I really could have done a better job of keeping tabs on this and if anything this experiance serves as a lesson no matter how harsh that lesson might be. I’m trying not to think about only because it would only make me sadder, but I’ll pray wait to see what happens with the loans. Either way like my aunt said I have to be strong there will be a lot more hurddles in my life.

So does any body have $14,000.00 to slide my way? T.T

It’s been a horrible year extra-curricular. Not because school went bad–well it kind of did, or that I didn’t have fun or did stuff–because I did too much, it’s partly why the grades weren’t well. What made it horrible was the fact that so many people are leaving. First it started with one of the coolest people on earth, Irene, graduating from Suffolk. It hit me hard in the chest like a arrow that one day I’ll have to leave Suffolk. Which sucks! I might not be drinking (a lot) or do vile illegal things (well sometimes), but I am having the time of my life. It’s like terrible to think that it has to be offer. Simply Shameful! Then news hit that the Director of Student Activites, one of my great mentors is leaving. That hit me hard, as he was the type of person that always had the answer, it may not have been the answer you wanted but it somehow was the better of the options. Then later today I found out my would be boss is leaving. What sucks isn’t the fact that she’s leaving it’s the fact that wanting her to stay is only selfish. She’s an amazing person and she’s be great at her higher position, but it still sad to see so many influential in your life go. I mean I really shouldn’t be talking she is moving literally down the street. In fact I can see her new office out our building’s window. But still you know that the bridge has now been cracked. I’ll have a new boss who will be great and do awesome stuff and she’ll be there, but she’ll be busy with her stuff too. I told her that when I’m breaking down I’m still coming over there to breakdown in front of her, but still it won’t be the same.

I guess this is the way life goes and all I have to say is “Boo!”

So I went home for a couple of days–it turned out to be nothing more than a $90 reminder of why I don’t go home often–and made a switch. My computer owns a PSP (Sidenote: for some reason when ever I say PSP I have to save it in the voice of the angel in the South Park episode where Kenny saves Heaven from Satan) and I convinced him to exchange the PS2 for that. PSP is mobile and since my job has me moving around a lot it would give me something to do. Also since my computer was destroyed I lost all my music, so now I have to use the music in the office and since I don’t have a computer (yet) and thus no iPod I can put music from there on the PSP (Damnit there I go again with the South Park accent!).

So far my a bit upset about the whole thing. The PSP has been out for a while and there really hasn’t been any appealing games–at least those in the genres that I fancy. Hopefully the PSP releases a game that bring it to the masses. Sort of like Nintendo has the Metroid Prime, Pokemon, and Legend of Zelda. I would have thought that the PSP would have released a Final Fantasy game by now. I think that would be fun.

I have to go buy a memory stick–I’m going for the 1GB–and start to upload the music, and pictures. Naturally the winner of the X111 Wallpaper Contest will be it’s new wallpaper.