Alright so I just ran from the Rec Hall to run into the computer lab to write this (silly) blog. I hate vending machines! I don’t have any food in my fridge and I’m terrible hungry so I decided (against my better judgement) to get some snacks from the vending machines. It ate my quarters! Like $3 worth! All I wanted was Doritos and Cola, is that is hard to ask for! Gosh. It just sucked up the quarters in the cola machine and didn’t give it back, and when I placed money for the Doritos it did that evil thing were it looks like it’s going to fall down but it doesn’t!

Grrrr!

It’s so sad how pathetic I get around guys. Really it is, it’s like the stuff reality TV Shows are made of. There’s this one guy and for whatever reason I’m still crushing on him. I don’t know why it is but when I have a legit crush on some guy it last a while. It’s like I can’t get him out of my mind. I can just be chilling in the office and out of the blue (<-what does that even mean?) I go and check his facebook picture. And before you start thinking I’m a total stalker–I’m only about 30%. We have talked before. And how can I remember that because he told that we can be friends. Amazingly I remember because later that night I got so drunk woke up in my friends apartment fixed my tie and left. Good times, good times!

I mean I don’t know my I still crush on him so much. I’ve seen more handsome/sexy guys over the summer. And I’m not saying that to coax myself out of it. He (the guy in question) is sexy, don’t get me wrong, but he’s not that sexy. But still I don’t know why I like him so much. Okay, maybe he’s not too sexy but he’s so adorable! Sometimes I wonder why I had to ever meet him. It’s not like I’ve done naughty things with him in mind (okay maybe once) but I want to go on a date with him once.

Ugh boys suck! What should I do?

So this week I find out that my university’s finicial aid isn’t coming through any time soon. So I’m pretty close to leaving school for a semester and coming back (hopefully) in the spring. I’ve applied for loans, but I’ve already been turned down for one. It’s kind of discouraging, especially because I’ll lose so much if I have to leave. I’ve already told the admistrators at the University that I work with that I might have to leave. So I’m going to be busy making preparations if worse comes to worse. It just sucks because I’ll lose my Resident Assistant position for the year and have to re-apply again.

I did lots of crying when I went home this week, because I didn’t even want to think about it. I screamed at a few people and got really upset, but in the end I realized that it’s out of my hands. I really could have done a better job of keeping tabs on this and if anything this experiance serves as a lesson no matter how harsh that lesson might be. I’m trying not to think about only because it would only make me sadder, but I’ll pray wait to see what happens with the loans. Either way like my aunt said I have to be strong there will be a lot more hurddles in my life.

So does any body have $14,000.00 to slide my way? T.T

It’s been a horrible year extra-curricular. Not because school went bad–well it kind of did, or that I didn’t have fun or did stuff–because I did too much, it’s partly why the grades weren’t well. What made it horrible was the fact that so many people are leaving. First it started with one of the coolest people on earth, Irene, graduating from Suffolk. It hit me hard in the chest like a arrow that one day I’ll have to leave Suffolk. Which sucks! I might not be drinking (a lot) or do vile illegal things (well sometimes), but I am having the time of my life. It’s like terrible to think that it has to be offer. Simply Shameful! Then news hit that the Director of Student Activites, one of my great mentors is leaving. That hit me hard, as he was the type of person that always had the answer, it may not have been the answer you wanted but it somehow was the better of the options. Then later today I found out my would be boss is leaving. What sucks isn’t the fact that she’s leaving it’s the fact that wanting her to stay is only selfish. She’s an amazing person and she’s be great at her higher position, but it still sad to see so many influential in your life go. I mean I really shouldn’t be talking she is moving literally down the street. In fact I can see her new office out our building’s window. But still you know that the bridge has now been cracked. I’ll have a new boss who will be great and do awesome stuff and she’ll be there, but she’ll be busy with her stuff too. I told her that when I’m breaking down I’m still coming over there to breakdown in front of her, but still it won’t be the same.

I guess this is the way life goes and all I have to say is “Boo!”