It’s so sad how pathetic I get around guys. Really it is, it’s like the stuff reality TV Shows are made of. There’s this one guy and for whatever reason I’m still crushing on him. I don’t know why it is but when I have a legit crush on some guy it last a while. It’s like I can’t get him out of my mind. I can just be chilling in the office and out of the blue (<-what does that even mean?) I go and check his facebook picture. And before you start thinking I’m a total stalker–I’m only about 30%. We have talked before. And how can I remember that because he told that we can be friends. Amazingly I remember because later that night I got so drunk woke up in my friends apartment fixed my tie and left. Good times, good times!

I mean I don’t know my I still crush on him so much. I’ve seen more handsome/sexy guys over the summer. And I’m not saying that to coax myself out of it. He (the guy in question) is sexy, don’t get me wrong, but he’s not that sexy. But still I don’t know why I like him so much. Okay, maybe he’s not too sexy but he’s so adorable! Sometimes I wonder why I had to ever meet him. It’s not like I’ve done naughty things with him in mind (okay maybe once) but I want to go on a date with him once.

Ugh boys suck! What should I do?

So this week I find out that my university’s finicial aid isn’t coming through any time soon. So I’m pretty close to leaving school for a semester and coming back (hopefully) in the spring. I’ve applied for loans, but I’ve already been turned down for one. It’s kind of discouraging, especially because I’ll lose so much if I have to leave. I’ve already told the admistrators at the University that I work with that I might have to leave. So I’m going to be busy making preparations if worse comes to worse. It just sucks because I’ll lose my Resident Assistant position for the year and have to re-apply again.

I did lots of crying when I went home this week, because I didn’t even want to think about it. I screamed at a few people and got really upset, but in the end I realized that it’s out of my hands. I really could have done a better job of keeping tabs on this and if anything this experiance serves as a lesson no matter how harsh that lesson might be. I’m trying not to think about only because it would only make me sadder, but I’ll pray wait to see what happens with the loans. Either way like my aunt said I have to be strong there will be a lot more hurddles in my life.

So does any body have $14,000.00 to slide my way? T.T

It’s been a horrible year extra-curricular. Not because school went bad–well it kind of did, or that I didn’t have fun or did stuff–because I did too much, it’s partly why the grades weren’t well. What made it horrible was the fact that so many people are leaving. First it started with one of the coolest people on earth, Irene, graduating from Suffolk. It hit me hard in the chest like a arrow that one day I’ll have to leave Suffolk. Which sucks! I might not be drinking (a lot) or do vile illegal things (well sometimes), but I am having the time of my life. It’s like terrible to think that it has to be offer. Simply Shameful! Then news hit that the Director of Student Activites, one of my great mentors is leaving. That hit me hard, as he was the type of person that always had the answer, it may not have been the answer you wanted but it somehow was the better of the options. Then later today I found out my would be boss is leaving. What sucks isn’t the fact that she’s leaving it’s the fact that wanting her to stay is only selfish. She’s an amazing person and she’s be great at her higher position, but it still sad to see so many influential in your life go. I mean I really shouldn’t be talking she is moving literally down the street. In fact I can see her new office out our building’s window. But still you know that the bridge has now been cracked. I’ll have a new boss who will be great and do awesome stuff and she’ll be there, but she’ll be busy with her stuff too. I told her that when I’m breaking down I’m still coming over there to breakdown in front of her, but still it won’t be the same.

I guess this is the way life goes and all I have to say is “Boo!”

So I went home for a couple of days–it turned out to be nothing more than a $90 reminder of why I don’t go home often–and made a switch. My computer owns a PSP (Sidenote: for some reason when ever I say PSP I have to save it in the voice of the angel in the South Park episode where Kenny saves Heaven from Satan) and I convinced him to exchange the PS2 for that. PSP is mobile and since my job has me moving around a lot it would give me something to do. Also since my computer was destroyed I lost all my music, so now I have to use the music in the office and since I don’t have a computer (yet) and thus no iPod I can put music from there on the PSP (Damnit there I go again with the South Park accent!).

So far my a bit upset about the whole thing. The PSP has been out for a while and there really hasn’t been any appealing games–at least those in the genres that I fancy. Hopefully the PSP releases a game that bring it to the masses. Sort of like Nintendo has the Metroid Prime, Pokemon, and Legend of Zelda. I would have thought that the PSP would have released a Final Fantasy game by now. I think that would be fun.

I have to go buy a memory stick–I’m going for the 1GB–and start to upload the music, and pictures. Naturally the winner of the X111 Wallpaper Contest will be it’s new wallpaper.

Well it’s time for another blog. Like al my blogs tend to be this one really isn’t important. As many of you might know my computer died on me. It broke, and I’m not talking metaphorically, it literally broke. So since then I’ve been searching for a new computer.

As many of the members of the forum know I’ve been debating the Apple vs. Microsoft for ages, and I decided to finally get an apple. Nothing special but I’m going to buy the iMac come the time when scholl starts. I’m actually on a Mac right now in the computer lab. Since I’m going to make the switch I figure I would take this time to get comfortable with the Mac. The little button on the mouse tickles. *giggles*

I know one thing I always here about the Mac is how expensive it is, but when I figured it all out it doesn’t come out too bad. Many of the common applications that I would use are much more expensive on windows. Boo! I’m very excited I’ve always wanted one. Yaay!

“Busy” is the word of the hour. Whether it’s work, play, or drama, I’ve certainly have my sleep hours to catch up on.

I guess I’ll cover several things to give you guys an idea. First, things regarded me and the site. As many of you have noticed I’ve been out for a while, with no computer I’ve only been able to “lurk” around the forums. I’ve very excited about the new generation of site members that we have, that are posting in the forums and are entering the competitions. I can’t wait to spend more time getting to know you all. I still hope one day all the oldies come back and go like “Woah, the place has changed”, and hopefully, though all things says it already is, for the best.

My participating in all things site related has been dismal and for that I’m sorry. With the recent discovery that Youtube pretty much trashed all of the anime available, except for Anime Music Videos made by people with too much time, I don’t think I’d be doing a anime review for a while–well besides the Pokemon 2000 review I’m working on.

In that same breathe I must admit that I’ve lost interest in manga. I think I became so yaoi-centric that when it was suddenly stripped from me it became hard for me to go back. I’ve bought several manga’s since the destruction of my laptop, but I’ve had to struggle to actually get through it. The story seemed to have gone on for ages and there was no man x man action to entertain one eye as the other one read–yeah I’m weird like that.

So being reduced to having to watch the “Juggernaut Bitch” video on Youtube over and over again, and having to try to read a shojo manga with boring myself to sleep, means I’m not really in the anime/manga spirit. However, there is hope. I’ve started writing game reviews for a while now and I have a lot more to go. I did a rough count and the site has about 30-35 Game Reviews, that’s a fraction compared to the Anime/Manga Section. So I want to boost that a bit, and with a steady supply of games it looks like an attainable goal; however, don’t let me do it all on my own. Please join in and help the site “Reach to a 100″, the new campaign slogan–I just made it up.