Memoirs of a Lunatic

Headcold @_@

I hate being ill. Especially when i still have an assignment to write… at least its not too hard, its just tedious.
I’m meant to be working tomorrow… if i don’t feel any better then i’ll call in sick. And the benefit of that is that i can call in sick on friday too! I’ve got a gig on friday and so far i can’t find anyone to cover my shift.

I’ve been pretty stressed lately what with money, hating my job and hating the town i live in… but i’ve got some optimism now. When i go back to uni in september its my final year, and i’m already plotting my final project. I’m gonna do an entire album… preferably something a little unique. I’m into the whole new wave indie/dance stuff at the moment, so i’d like to record a band like that.

If only i had a mac at home. I don’t like the things, but i have to use them. It’d just be far more convenient to have one… plus it gets round an extremely horrific bug in Logic 8. I love the program, but its not mobile! If you save a project to an external device, then use a different computer, it will scramble the regions. That means the work is either completely ruinned, or you have to spend hours correcting it… depending how scrambled it gets. My last project was one single song… it took months to complete thanks to constantly being set back!

*shuffles off to continue mulling over music marketing and media* X_X

So very tired

Work near enough killed me tonight. It was only a 5hr shift but it was so damned busy, and we were dramatically understaffed because it just wasn’t expected. The upstairs bar had one person on the bar, who was a new guy, and me clearing the floor and waiting tables -_-

I’m so sick of that job, its wearing me down hugely. I’m nocturnal, which i hate, i have no fucking money, and it feels like i don’t have a life.
Its not even like i can be happy in the slightest at work… its the little things really, like never showing any gratitude towards the staff. Every pub i’ve worked in gives staff a free drink at the end of the night, with a thank you and well done. This place, ha. If we take a ludicrous amount of money through the till then we get a free drink… so it doesn’t happen often, and its rare that we get thanked.

A free drink isnt the issue there obviously… its the principle of it. The place treats staff as disposable… i’ve been there about 3 months or so and already i’m amongst the ‘veteran’ staff members… thats absurd O_o I should still be known as newbie by all rights.

The old bank account is running very dry at the moment. I’m waiting on another job offer, but its taking longer than i thought. So even if i started the new job tomorrow i still wouldn’t get any money in time… not actually sure how i’ll be paying the rent or keeping the car on the road this month ¬_¬ Its not like i have anywhere i can borrow that money from till the next loan comes through. Might have to ask the estate agent if we can pay next month instead… which is plainly embarrassing.

I’m feeling pretty jealous of others right now. My mates at uni… actually most of the people at uni, seem to have it easier. They complain about not having much money, but then they say that their parents pay for their rent and they only need to buy food… they piss most of their loan up the wall then moan when they run out. I barely ever go out, i wouldn’t call my spending anywhere near extravagant and yet i still find myself piss poor broke.
Jealous of my cousin too. I love the guy, but he doesn’t realize how good hes got it. His dad is a millionaire in property… the other day he says “oh, i put some land in your name, its worth $100k” and my cousin barely bats an eyelid… shit, i’d be jumping over the moon if someone said that to me!

eh… fuck it.