Memoirs of a Lunatic

Great…

The time i booked for the studio… no good.
Sam (rhythm guitar) will be on holiday for most of April, and Markos (lead guitar) can’t go to the studio during college time cos he has exams coming up soon…. my only hope is that i can get us in at work for the easter holidays… I’ve sent my boss an email explaining that, so hopefully the time will be available.

If not…I’m boned.

Oh, and my tutor sent me an email (i emailed him with the proposal for my project) He basically said i can’t take all this time off college due to being broke, and i should get another job, and that because i’ve taken all this time off i can’t book 2 days studio time for straight after the holidays.
He then sent me another email saying he understands how hard it is but i should try (like i haven’t tried finding another job!) and i should phone him to sort things out… which i will do.

…Why do things always end up getting fucked up for me.

Oh, and lets make things worse… just been rehearsing with my band and sorting out song structures and such (something i regard as part of my course seeing as we’ve got to record this for my project) Finished, went and had a beer with the guys afterwards. Felt a lot more relaxed… when i went out i was all pent up and stressed out.
I get home to, as usual, a pissed off mother storming around the house and pissing off everyone.

I. am. sick. of. this!

Everytime i go out and relax, or go out and have a good time, i get home and she ruins it for me! Instead of going to sleep thinking what a good day its been, i go to sleep wishing i wasn’t here! I should just stop fucking coming home!

So, now i’m pissed off again, and feeling quite panicy!

Well fuck me in the @sshole!

Thank you very much Nescot… got a letter yesterday from them, telling us the deadline for ALL work to be submitted is May 18th! Eck, they’ve been telling us June 14th for the whole year! Now suddenly i’ve got to rush to get everything done in time… fuck, i still have another EP to produce! I’ve booked the studio time for that, middle of next month… its just not much time.
I’ve still got to finish off a budget, explain the nats arse of each track, show research (btw, a pointless task, i’ve done no research for this stuff, its already been taught to us!) finalilize the presentation and evaluate thouroughly… kill me please.
This is on top of Alan’s retarded fucking assignments… i don’t know music theory, therefore i have no idea how to finish those assignments! Fancy giving work to music TECHNOLOGY students, about music theory! Its nothing we need to be concerned with!

Oh, the salt in the wound - After everything has been handed in, we are still expected to attend for a full month, with no work to do, and no point in being there….. when will common sense prevail?

Enter Charcoal!

Less than a week now before me and my band play live together for the first time! Its our bassists birthday party we’re playing at, doesn’t sound like much but a big hall has been rented out, and there’ll be a lot of people… so its as good as a gig.
Kiinda nervous, but i’m used to be on stage, so i’m more looking forward to it! We’ve actually got a good sound going on so i wanna see what kind of a response we get from the audience!

After the weekend got my surgery… meh, not exactly looking forward to that but what can ya do? Just hope i don’t feel rubbishy afterwards.

What else… erm, not a lot comes to mind. Oh i’ve finished the first EP album for my FMP, and it sounds pretty good Not its down to getting my own band recorded and using computer wizardry to make us sound like rock gods of the century

Gas @_@

Yeah beer gives me gas…

Anyway! Speakers turned up, the same ones. DV said to phone them when i got em because they tested the things thorughly and they worked fine for them. So i did and spent ages on the phone while the guy said ‘try this, try that’ all to no avail. So they arranged to pick em up again and i got off the phone… then i decided to test them just one more time. Weird thing is, they worked… they worked just fine! I have no idea why they just started working like that but they did, and they sound fucking awesome!
So, thankfully that issue is now totally resolved!

We’re not gonna be doing the sound for fu manchu anymore at college… turns out Marcus took so long actually getting round to phoning their agent that by the time he did they’d given up and booked the date, and had no free dates left! Me and Chris are gonna rip his buttocks off next friday!

In other news i’m going to Olympia tomorrow for the 2007 sounds expo i love seeing whats new on the market, and it looks like there’ll be quite a few interesting new things… plus now that i’ve come a long way since the last expo, i’ll know a lot more about what i’m looking at and what impact the new technology will have.
Also going to Harrods, they’ve got a kick ass guitar expo going on so its certainly worth a look… got some very expensive axes there for us to drool over!

*Insert manic laughter*

Well, today the speakers did indeed arrive… only the box looked familiar… because it was the same box i had sent them containing the broken speakers. I thought they may have repaired them? No… i have been sitting at home waiting for a whole bloody week, only to recieve the exact same broken fucking speakers that i sent back to them!!!

Aparently, they tested them and found they worked fine… so you would think they’d call me and ask what exactly the problem is! They don’t work fine, i repeated the exact same testing procedure as them, and only one speaker works! They obvious played something through them for a split second, heard sound and assumed they worked.

Incompetance beyond fucking belief, once again i’ve had to call off work on my FMP due to those bumbling morons! I spoke with the manager, tore him down a strip and insisted the next package i recieve WILL be delivered early in the week and will most definitely be a brand new set of speakers! I fully intend now to get hold of their head office and register my complaint too, this is unacceptable.

Grah!

Well despite me wanting to go to Dolphin, Dolphin don’t have any in stock and say it could be up to 6 weeks before they have them! Unfortunately i need these things yesterday, so i’ve had to phone up digital village and resume the order… the guy promises that i will definitely get them tomorrow, and lord help them if i don’t recieve the things tomorrow! I’ve already been searching their site for contact info for their head office to complain… if i don’t recieve the things tomorrow then i’ll make it priority number 1.

Another day off college then… they will be ever so pleased, i suppose i should phone and say i’m sick ¬_¬

Dear fucking God!

I CANNOT believe the sheer fucking incompetance of digital village! I will NEVER use that company again! and i will certainly recommend to everyone i know that they use another company! Fucking incompetance!!!!!!

I’ve been waiting at home this week for my replacement speakers to arrive… the first set were broken, not their fault but the way they have dealt with me is purely unacceptable! Wednesday they informed me they forgot to despatch my new ones, today they inform me there was a ‘technical’ error thats not their fault… so today i asked for a fucking refund, i should have brought the things from Dolphin music in the first place, so thats what i’ll do!

Fuck me, you pay £83 for speakers, you expect to see the fucking things!

Give it up for Fu Manchu!

Listening to their latest album at the moment… dayum its good! I can’t believe we’re doing the sound for these guys in the summer! Its gonna be nuts! I mean you just have to look at photos from their gigs. They draw in THOUSANDS of people, no idea why they wanna play at nescot but hey, i’m not gonna knock it!

Went to my old workplace. They don’t have any hours, in fact they just filled a position yesterday -_- But they said i’m first on the list as soon as more hours open… so fingers crossed aye! I got over £100 in cheques anyway so that should tide me by for a while

Handjobs for cash!

Yeah yeah its getting desperate on the bank balance side of things. I’ve started my new exciting job now… but thus far i’ve done 2, count em, 2hrs of work! That earns me just £16 and i have no more hours on the horizon!

The problem is - the council gave the studio an initial budget for equipment and set up costs, but nothing more… so absolutely no budget at all for advertising, so no one knows the bloody studio is there, so no bookings!
This job is going to be fantastic for my CV…. heh, actually it looks like i’ll be doing the sound for Fu Manchu in summer, another great thing for the CV… but nevermind, i need cash now!
Tomorrow i’m gonna go to my old workplace and ask if i can have my old job back… its a long shot, but i got along great there, was genuinely sad to leave, and if i’m in luck they need more staff! I won’t quit the studio, but at least i’ll have money coming in while the studio does something (anything) to generate more business!
I did hand out some leaflets to bands last night while i worked the gig (mainly on my own as chris wasn’t about, lot of work!) and they seemed interested… but y’know, even if EVERY band i gave a leaflet to booked, thats only 4 or 5 a month… no good at all!

I have no luck with employment at all…

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Thursday was just plainly horrible. I don’t know how i managed to stand there for so long without breaking down… lord knows plenty of others couldn’t. If it had been someone old you could comprehend it, and say they had a good run at life… but putting a 20yr old into the ground just isn’t right.
His poor mum… i can only imagine how dreadful that was for her, seeing her son grow up, get a good job, a girlfriend and starting to look for his own place, then hes suddenly just gone.

It makes you think a lot… he was the same age as me. I don’t keep myself as fit as he did… i wouldn’t want to put my family and friends through that kind of trauma.
Been thinking about what i value in life. Its time for me to just make sure things happen, or it could be me in a box with nothing to show for it all.

This truely has to be the worst start to a new year ever… doesn’t look like things will get too much better either. My aunty is ill with cancer, and all anyone can do is keep her in our thoughts.