Mog and Chips

It didn’t go down too well.

Apparently I’m not appreciating all the work they’re putting in for me to be able to go to uni by “putting it off” an extra year.

I’d rather have some extra money behind so I’m more prepared and can appreciate it, than dive straight in and be asking for money later like some ungrateful brat.

Not to mention while that money’s in the bank it generates interest that goes directly to paying for the morgage (not much, but y’know.) So it should be helping them, if anything.

They don’t believe I’ll get a job. I’m self motivated TO get a job by taking a year out, in fact, that’s the whole point. They’re getting completely the wrong end of the stick and think I’m taking a year out so I can sit and do nothing.

It’s so. damn. Infuriating when someone misses your entire point and is telling you you’re just a lazy twat when the entire reason for “putting it off” is completely the opposite.

And it stings because I just know that when I DO get a job, they’ll think it’s only to prove them wrong rather than being self motivated. -_-

I’ve half changed my mind. Being in this house means living with these people who are convinced I’m someone I’m not and don’t respect my descisions and still treat me like a 6 year old (Youngest sibling syndrome, ftw! )

I want to get out, I’m not “scared” of uni, I’m not thinking of taking a year out so I can sit on my arse all day and do sod all. But those are all the reasons they’re convinced I’m giving even when I’m not.

And it’s clouding my judgement. I can’t see what’s “best” for me because I’m getting angry over this and essentially getting pushed out because they refuse to believe that I’m working for uni. Hence I am likely to make a rash descision - ie going because living with them would be hell, or NOT going because I think that going because it would be hell would be rash.

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