Mmm, mood swingage. Great timing, I’d almost forgotten what it was like.
I’ve gained weight O.o that’s not what a student budget’s supposed to do to you! I’ve decided if I reach 9 stone I’m going to start proper dieting, since my mam and sister were both thin and suddenly snowballed and are finding it really hard to get back to that weight.
I know that sounds really vain, since I should be eating healthy anyway (and I am slightly more now, because my housemate is a health nut) but I’ll probably get that pitying look off my mother (the same pitying look when I had when I got glasses and the same look back when I had braces, I’m a “poor thing” for needing those) and then I’ll get all self consious (like with my glasses. Like, when people are looking at you, and maybe it’s like the way they’re looking at anyone else, but maybe it’s like they think you’re a disgusting creature that’s so hideous they have to stare (or actually move away, thank you chav on the train to gatwick! ) or throw stuff (thank you brats at school) and none of that happens when you’re not wearing them, and when you first went to the opticians your mam was looking at you with that sad look in her eyes that says “what has my daughter become” and when you first got your contacts was the only time she didn’t have that look in her eye, and everyone said you look so, so much better.
But yeah, it’s wierd… like everyone else wears them, and I don’t judge them, but when I wear them, it feels like they’re judging me? And it’s stupid to get selfconsious because “Its on the inside what counts” and “they’re not worth your time if they’re going to act like that” but it doesn’t change a thing O.o
…And now I feel like a complete brat. “OMG what must people think of me!” type thing.
Maybe people that get plastic surgery feel like that. Someone going for an implant doesn’t judge anyone else that’s an A cup, but thinks everyone’s judging them, and a few comments from heartless and immature people are taken entirely to heart. And of course those comments are going to stop if they DO get implants because those people won’t have anything to comment on anymore.
Anyway, warbling over, I had a temper tantrum because I burnt a pizza in the oven yesterday. I scare me sometimes. I’m just glad no-one close to me was in the house at the time (it’s easier to release your anger on people that are close to you because you’re more familiar and the bonds between you aren’t so fragile, and I wouldn’t like to do that) because I would have probably screamed and hit and tantrumed.
…Actually, this means there’s a good chance I’ll be wanting to miss some college next week, but shouldn’t for team workerage. Ibuprofen just doesn’t cut it, and neither do the “we all go through it, take it like a woman!” comments if I’m doubled over in my chair. Hurrah.
And the miricle cure for both above problems that has some lovely, annoying side effects. Amoung which I forgot how bad not having it was, and stopped taking it.
I want a new brain. My one’s broken =P
25/01/2007 at 2:59 pm Permalink
Glasses can make people look sexier, classy and or more intelligent.
And everyone needs some vanity, egoism. One needs to be able to take care of themselves and reach their own ideals, balance and such.
Everyone experience things somewhat different. Some are more sensitive and got different weaknesses, so…
People can be seemingly so uncaring, narrow-minded, due to too few experiences, knowledge, sympathy? Or just open their mouths to often and too quick, just for the sake of talking, no silence?
26/01/2007 at 11:10 pm Permalink
*ducks for the mood swings and offers non-black pizza*
Sorry, can’t help you with the new brain, mine’s been sent away for repairs as well.
27/01/2007 at 4:13 pm Permalink
I’ll give you my brain, but it’s not much. :p
29/01/2007 at 2:00 am Permalink
Lol. Us women have it rough *offers pain relief and stress toys*
I find that when I have to wear my glasses it does feel like people look or think of you differently. I hate wearing glasses but if I don’t wear them then I there’s very little I can see clearly. But yeah, I even bought some nice trendy glasses and I still hate wearing the damn things, especially in public places like going shopping or something. Plus I look so better in the mirror when I can’t see the closeup detail *laughs*
29/01/2007 at 6:14 pm Permalink
*rubs head* Couldn’t you have given her the stress relief toy BEFORE she used my head for that!
You look great no matter what. I actually think you look pretty cute in glasses, so yeah, ignore those idiots that think otherwise!
01/02/2007 at 2:19 pm Permalink
You stuck your finger in my eye, my rage was justified! =P
I can see up to about a foot and a half away clearly, then it’s all fuzzy. Prescription’s like a -2.75 or something. So the way it was back home, I could get brats chucking stuff at me, or get run over on the way home from school/6th form.
Some people suit glasses really well, but I’m pretty sure I don’t or I wouldn’t get the shit for it =P Maybe I’ve got the wrong shape or something… but all honesty I think I want to go for laser as soon as I’m old enough and can afford it.