Mog and Chips

Back to where my mates are falling apart!

…Actually, they’re not falling apart as such. One is being a selfish bitch and is calling certain other friends sad, despite that fact that she’s the one leaving snidey comments on MySpace and Facebook. And snidey in the way that, you know the person you’re bitching about is going to read them, and rather than “so and so was mean to me” it’s sarcastic and taking the mic out of her mental state, which isn’t really on.

Cos you know, when you’ve only just been diagnosed with Bipolar (and it actually fits; when she’s manic, she’s actually manic and talking fast and screaming in excitement and when then she has the bouts of depression), it means you’ve been using it as an excuse your entire life, including the overdoses you attempted before, even though you didn’t even consider you might have had it before. There’s no mental consequences of things like say, having to run away from home because your parents tried to kill you and other things that I’m not going to go in to, and then they’re still trying to kill you in the name of honour for the family.

Oh, and lets not forget “How dare you be in hospital for attempting suicide?! It means I haven’t got anyone to go clubbing with!”

*slapforehead*

I mean ok, someone being suicidal is a scare; and I’m sure it’s much worse when you’re living with them and it keeps happening over a series of months. But the last thing someone suicidal needs is someone telling them they’re being selfish a hassle for making them worry. I know that would make me worse if I was in a situation like that. The same when she’s just depressed or upset - if someone gets upset over something, of course it doesn’t make you feel good, but you don’t say “you’re not allowed to be depressed because it’ll ruin my day; you’re not allowed to cry because it means you’re attention seeking”

Saying “You’re just using you’re ‘illness’ as an excuse to be selfish” is actually quite rich coming from someone who never contributes anything, will snog someone else’s semi-boyfriend, and would leave someone drunk in the middle of Brighton and then turn around and say that it’s selfish of them to attempt suicide because it means she was worried.

I was worried; but you have the patience for a mate when you know they’re having a hard time. When it’s a mate, hell it’s not even ‘patience’, it’s just what you do, because they’re your mate and you want them to be ok.

This (accuser) is someone that, looking back, seems to love to play victim. When said mate was actually in danger of being homeless, she was going “oh yeah, I’m gonna be homeless too”
“but you have your parents, they’re not kicking you out”
“Yeah, well, I’m just saying”

Wait, what?

Sigh. Well, I’m going home for Easter. There is one person that I will kick in the face on site (not her; someone that did something much worse to her I’m not going to go into), and her, well she’ll just need a good talking to. I’d also like to see her explanation on things. Although, chances are I won’t actually see her, since apparently she’s been bitching about myself and my best mate’s other best mate despite the fact we haven’t actually done anything and we only heard about this in the last week or so, so she’s already decided we’re on my mate’s side for whatever reason, unless there’s something I just don’t know about, which may be quite likely.

Hmm, bitching on my blog. And taking sides. Ahahaha, Maybe I’m just as bad. But I felt ranty, and I’m not naming names. And quite frankly, I don’t tolerate someone telling someone that’s vulnerable and at the same time worried that their vulnerability is a burden, that’s they’re sad, pathetic and selfish for actually needing help.

Also I believe I said before about “it’s not right to leave a drunk girl alone in brighton”, and Commsie was quite right; it’s not right to leave anyone alone in the middle of a city when drunk - apologies for leaving the men out like it’s ok to leave them staggering home alone to get mugged or whatnot =P I didn’t mean to be all radical feminist and all.

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