Beyond the Gates

Access Your Core from Intel

Alright guys, it’s time to let you in on something. I’ve entered the Intel “Access Your Core” contest, and would greatly appreciate if you all voted for me. It would definitely help me fun my trip throughout the summer, as well as as keep the site running smoothly, and many other things that will help me in the long run.

Also, a friend from over at Rainwave has also entered the contest in the slideshow portion of the contest, and would greatly appreciate if you helped him out as well. =) the link for his entry can be found Here.

Thanks for everyone’s participation. And Please remember to vote for both entries once per day.

Hi everyone =) It’s been a while, no?

School’s been so hectic lately, and that seems to be the only thing I have been focusing on. It also feels like time had stopped and I had been given a 2nd chance to live. You see, I’ve been feeling so out of it the last couple weeks, and this past Tuesday, it felt like I had become a zombie. I had to be taken to ER because I had lost my conscience to live.

I had been struck with pneumonia shortly after getting bronchitis, which then led to loss of breath, and many other bad things.

I had spent from last Tuesday through Friday in the hospital being treated for my illness. Needless to say, it was sad being away from home all those days, but at least it had payed off as I feel like new again. Though the only bit of trouble I have is trying to walk around, as my meds do have their own side effects.

In other news, it is the last week of October, and it feels like it just started D: Ah well. I guess I can look forward to Halloween since it is on a Saturday this year, and I have the day off =)

That’s about it for now. It is time for me to run along to another long day of class … x.x

Well, I guess it’s time I mention what I’ve been up to this whole time.

first off, I’ve been busy with school and work. Secondly, I’ve been working on a project that I’ve had going for who knows how many years now. But said project will go live in a week or two.

And now it is time to go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep z.z; @ 1:30am D:

Let me take a look deep inside your eyes
to search out the truth that lies

Separate myself from the rest of the world
It’s a sign of things to come
Calling out to freedom
Will it cease to go on?

Never to be a star on my own
Frantic desires of mine will be shown
Deep inside lies someone calling out to me
You damned deceiver, set me free!

Full speed into overdrive, you shall learn …
The power within is just an illusion
Crash and burn with all your might
It’s only a matter of time where I am crowned King
Ruler of all that beckons your destruction

To take this chance, it’s a must …
You will all be left …. to die in rust

touch the sky … never knew the reason why it dies ….

Artist :: Helloween
Album :: Keeper of the Seven Keys Part 1 (remaster)
Song :: Victim of Fate

So once again, here I am sitting inside a Starbucks being bored out of my fucking mind and pissed off at the same time. (like that’s anything new, right?). As you all might know, I’m usually Shy when it comes to trying to find a guy to be with. Now, being a member of a few forums, it’s made me a little more open to things and what not …. but now it feels like things are somehow rolling back to the way they were. Why is it happening, I have no clue.

Now, don’t get me wrong and all that. Everyone I talk to in the IRC is are like my best buds and all, yet there is something in between me and them which makes me feel somewhat isolated nowadays. I meet people, become friends with them, and then somewhere along the lines, something rolls around and makes things feel like they shouldn’t be there. For instance, why can’t I be the one to converse with people, why can I not feel like I’m getting something accomplished by making new friends…. why?

I hope the answer shows itself soon. and for the meantime, I am going to disappear for an indefinite ammount of time to try and figure myself out. So ….. laters.

Nowhere to run …
Nowhere to hide…

In Oblivion we must dwell
You will pay for denying our destiny

No longer will we lie under your command
Betrayal became the final draw…. so prepare to face the prophecy of destruction!

Oppression, anger, sadness …
Rebellion marching on to defeat this madness

No longer will we obey the master
No World Order ruling us all.

seize the madness, burn the heathens.
regain our lives, it’s a must…

Children of the night, rebellion calls us home

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this isn’t a lyrical piece … I was just expressing myself over what has gone on earlier this week. <.<

well … this is just something I wrote out of nowhere due to boredom and current mood <.<

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A reflection in the shadows
Is it just an illusion?
For you are the one I seek
Holding you close, I can’t breathe

Dance in the rain, fly away
rotting away, leaving everything behind

Please let me be by your side…

Let’s sing and spread the love to the ends of time
show me the meaning of living in this world
Be there always …. within me

Tonight, I wonder if I could be gentle …
pulling you closer like threads on a web
Is love like this wrong? Does it hurt?

Becoming one with darkness
sacrifice mingling with blood
Let’s make a toast
to your dreams … to your darkness …

Until your tears dry up
… goodbye

well, I know it’s been a couple months since my last blog entry … but Dragon627 told me i should start blogging again <.< so yeah, I’ll give you guys an inside view as to what’s been going on these past 3 months.

life in general has been happening >.> bought the latest Helloween CD “Gambling With the Devil” a few weeks ago and am listening to it a lot. such awesome music.

I attended FAnime, an anime convention in San Jose, CA that goes through Memorial Day weekend. had a blast. I got my psp modded, which I am really stoked about. I can finally throw my old PSX away D: … I met with some of my newest friends in Livermore, which is a really awesome place to have friends. Also throughout the convention, I finally got the chance to meet one of my buddies that used to frequent AnimeOST forums and IRC. Yeah, LegendKiller is awesome =)

And just the other day … I got Final Fantasy VIII to run on my CFW psp, though it crashes on some occasions, which is a real bummer. but hey, at least it runs, right? :3

here is a screenshot of FFVIII running on the psp:

Squall Leonhart conversing with Headmaster Cid Kramer

other than what was mentioned above, nothing else has been going on really. ~ off to play more Final Fantasy VIII~!

Flowers of illusion sail within the sea of madness
carrying with it are the very thoughts of our existence
The day I began to love, I began to see
the flames of our existence burning bright
igniting the world within
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promise me to never leave this world
so long as we remain each other’s for eternity
for the flowers of peace will continue to guide us ‘til death
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Beneath these waves, the lovers embrace
dancing to the symphony of everlasting life…
hold on to me as I become an angel of flames

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promise me to never leave this world
so long as we remain each other’s for eternity
for the flowers of peace will continue to guide us ‘til death
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Promise me you’ll become an angel of flames, too …