Fly High……
Posted by Shades on December 13th, 2008
touch the sky … never knew the reason why it dies ….
Artist :: Helloween
Album :: Keeper of the Seven Keys Part 1 (remaster)
Song :: Victim of Fate
So once again, here I am sitting inside a Starbucks being bored out of my fucking mind and pissed off at the same time. (like that’s anything new, right?). As you all might know, I’m usually Shy when it comes to trying to find a guy to be with. Now, being a member of a few forums, it’s made me a little more open to things and what not …. but now it feels like things are somehow rolling back to the way they were. Why is it happening, I have no clue.
Now, don’t get me wrong and all that. Everyone I talk to in the IRC is are like my best buds and all, yet there is something in between me and them which makes me feel somewhat isolated nowadays. I meet people, become friends with them, and then somewhere along the lines, something rolls around and makes things feel like they shouldn’t be there. For instance, why can’t I be the one to converse with people, why can I not feel like I’m getting something accomplished by making new friends…. why?
I hope the answer shows itself soon. and for the meantime, I am going to disappear for an indefinite ammount of time to try and figure myself out. So ….. laters.
December 15th, 2008 at 7:04 pm
Indefinite?! Like forever?! *smacks with frying pan*
You, like everyone else in IRC, needs a good smack for being depressing. -_-
On a more serious note, your shyness is just a form of insecurity. The way you speak of things now will more than likely not get you anywhere close to finding an answer. You have to go out and search for it by doing something completely new and different. Be spontaneous or nothing will change! *shakes finger*
December 17th, 2008 at 2:44 pm
^ what she said.
I’m not quite sure what you mean by you feel that you’re not getting anything accomplished by making new friends.
But the isolated and all sounds familiar from days gone by, sounds more like you’re missing a click in yourself that makes the puzzle pieces fall into place and give you a sense of direction. That’s not something other people can give you.
Good luck with the soul searching.