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November 30th, 2007 by Shades
np :: Buck Tick - Tenshi no Revolver (2007) - 06 - CREAM SODA
Kuruisou da … Kuruisou da …
Well … tonight was cool yet awkward. Today I’ve been wanting to take my friend out to dinner with me so that we could also hang out and such. As he came to my place, we played a bit of Melty Blood: Act Cadenza on my comp before heading out to dinner. Needless to say, I got whooped like 80% of the time, hehe …. but it was very fun nonetheless. As we got to where we were going to have dinner, we both just start talking about things even I can’t seem to remember at this point. After having a very delicious dinner, though, I pull out a note of what I wanted to say to him, and pretended to read it .. until he almost took it from me, did I toss it to him for him to read.
So he does read it, and before he says anything, I told him to stay quiet about it, because I was sure on what he was going to say about it. So then I thank him for being a really cool friend, and that I really do appreciate all the times we hang out and stuff. After we’re finished paying and everything (we tipped the guy with the remaining change from our bill; which I felt was needed considering how awesome he is), we head on over to my truck to talk a bit more of what went on between the other Trevor I’m sure you all knew about, and myself.
At that point I was about to go crazy, as I did not know how to say what I wanted to say … and almost started crying just talking about it with him … But you know, this guy is extremely awesome, because he’s so understanding and it makes me very happy just being around him now. Letting out all my problems from the last few months in front of him made me feel so much better, and I am really glad for that.
November 24th, 2007 by Shades
should we really care?
the end is finally here … god have mercy!
np :: Megadeth - Countdown to Extinction (1992) - 12 - Ashes In Your Mouth
Well, nice change of music, eh? 
Anyway, today hasn’t been so bad. I FINALLY had some time to clean my room and such, so I decided to do so so I can be proud of myself and reward myself with some …. PIZZA!! :3
I’m here at home, unfortunately, though …. since I wasn’t able to go to Las Vegas this weekend like I had hoped to. Dad started not feeling too well, so we all decided to not go until sometime next year (yay!)
Now I’m just waiting for a friend to get off work and to call me and go get something to eat … ’cause I’m starved! ^__^x
*disappears into the night like always*
November 24th, 2007 by Shades
np :: Buck Tick - Kyokutou I Love You (2002) - 07 - Kyokutou Yori Ai wo Komete (From the Far East with Love)
All these days have gone by and I still don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. I especially don’t know why I’ve also entered into a nonstop Buck-Tick listening frenzy …
So I guess I shall also say that I’ll be an uncle for the 4th time ….. yippidy-fucking- yay… *finds object to stab self with* I don’t want anymore kids running around the house, dang it! D:
Also, today wasn’t really too bad considering “Black Friday” … just the usual annoyance of shoppers in general. D:
November 23rd, 2007 by Shades
np :: Buck Tick - Six/Nine (1995) - 12 - KICK (The Man Who Kicks The Ground)
Well, I hope everyone had a very good Thanksgiving because I sure did! 
but just the week’s been crappy …. I don’t know why… -___- Ah well, time to go drums to s’more Buck Tick *disappears*
November 20th, 2007 by Shades
np :: Buck Tick - Six/Nine (1995) - 04 - Kodou (Heartbeat)
Whee, time for yet another update. Tuesday night here in sunny (yeah, right <.<) so.cal … not doing much other than playing Super Mario Galaxy, which is REALLY fun, and I’m really looking forward to the weekend as I will be in Las Vegas this coming Saturday and Sunday. Also, I’ll be entering my last quarter in school before I get my Associates Degree in Drafting which is really awesome.
My B-day/LAN party is next month, which is something I can’t wait for, especially since I’ll be sure to invite some of my newest friends to attend. ^^;
For a while now, I’d had this strange feeling running through me ever since a certain incident happened several weeks ago.. but it has recently made its way back ever since I started hanging out with one of my newest friends that i’ve known for a couple of months now. What does it mean …. no one knows … but I hope I find the answer to it soon.
November 8th, 2007 by Shades
np :: Buck Tick - Mona Lisa OVERDRIVE (2003) - 03 - Zangai
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Well now, the unthinkable has happened, apparently o___o
First off, I am alone once more. Things happened so suddenly and were way beyond my grasp. I guess he and his parents had to move back up to Nor.cal to take care of something, I guess … and it left me in ruins (hence the song and blog title). All I can remember is going home and crying myself to sleep at 2:30 in the morning the other night when I heard the news earlier that night. But you know what? Shit happens for a reason I guess. And even though I’m still trying to get over the fact that he’s gone …. I’m still moving on, for I’m not the young shadow I once was.
Although ….. all of a sudden I feel so weird again. My guy might be gone (though not permanently, I hope) .. but I have someone who’s been a friend for the past month or so. And oddly enough, he has the same name, shares (most) of the same traits .. and other stuff >.>
Now … BEFORE anyone starts making any assumptions, I don’t plan on getting as close to him as I did with my guy, even though we’re like close friends now. He’s a cool guy though.
Ruins, Ruins Ruins …. oh, how fun it is to be in them all the time >.>
November 1st, 2007 by Shades
Currently playing :: Buck Tick - Taboo (1989) - 10 - Just One More Kiss
Dream & dream mune ni kizamu
Slow motion hito yo no yume
Just one more kiss yokogao wa maru de setsuna no bibou
Just one more kiss muse kaeru kaori
Usure yuku ishiki dake ga….
Night & night hito wa odoru
Illumination yagate nemuru
Just one more kiss daki aeba soko wa kakuu no miyako
Just one more kiss tsumetateta koshi wa
Hakanai koi ni yurete….
Tenshi no zawameki akuma no sasayaki tsuki yoru ni amai kuchizuke
Kirameki wa todokanai tsubuyaita
I want you to love me
I know you lost your heart mogaki tsuzuke
Tokimeki wa kareanai aishiteru
I want you to kill me
God knows i lost my heart sakebitsuzuke
Ah-ah one more kiss….
Just one more kiss yokogao wa maru de setsuna no bibou
Just one more kiss muse kaeru kaori
Usureyuku ishiki dake wa….
Just one more kiss daki aeba soko wa kakuu no miyako
Just one more kiss tsumetateta koshi wa
Hakanai koi ni yurete….
Tenshi no zawameki akuma no sasayaki tsuki yoru ni amai kuchizuke
Kirameki wa todokanai tsubuyaita
I want you to love me
I know you lost your heart mogaki tsuzuke
Tokimeki wa kareanai aishiteru
I want you to kill me
God knows i lost my heart sakebi tsuzuke
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Well, it’s been a while since I last blogged, so I guess I shall summarize what’s gone on since then. As I mentioned in my blog in July. I’ve fallen in love with a guy, been seeing each other every now and then, and hung out several times. However, there have only been a couple of instances where we came very close to one another. and those two instances happened at b-day hangouts, coincidentally. I’ve never given myself the chance, even up to this point, to tell him how much he means to me and such. Perhaps I’m just scared …
In more news, a couple of friends and I attended Knott’s Halloween Haunt last night (on Halloween night itself, mind you) … and it was pure insanity, I will say that much. I’m glad I went with my friends to Knott’s Berry Farm, seeing as I haven’t been there in about 11 years. And the friends that I went with … really awesome people if you ask me.
(a note to hamstah and ryo …. YOU GUYS ROCK!! :3 )
As far as the blog title is concerned … I picked that for the title because I am listening to this song over and over and it makes me think about the times I wish I could be with my guy, and well …. you get the point (I hope)
(I’m soooooooooo waiting for AnimeLA now ……. it’s going to rule, that’s for sure.) :3
July 25th, 2007 by Shades
well, I never thought I’d say this … but it seems I have *finally* fallen in love :3 I’ve been like this since this last Sunday, actually.
now I am just beginning to talk to the one I’m in love with and hope things go smooth from there on. wish me luck! ~~
June 1st, 2007 by Shades
Location // Ventura, CA
Time // 7:00PM
Event // None
Day// # - 1
the day begins as I wake up eagerly awaiting going on a trip to Northern California for FanimeCon 2007. So it starts off normally….. Wake up, eat breakfast, run some errands and such, just to kill time and make the time to leave come a little quicker! So the day goes on by, I go and text scsa to see what time he will be arriving. Then as I get bored at home, I go to the mall to kill some time. Go to the EBGames here and hang out with them before I go on vacation. Then as the night progresses, I get a reply from scsa saying that he will not be able to come and pick me up until the next morning around 6am. “well, at least I can try and get some sleepâ€, I replied to his text. So there goes the night, waiting and waiting to go on my trip.
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Location // Livermore, CA
Time // 6:00AM
Event // Fanime 2007
Day// # 0
So my morning begins waaaay too unexpectedly. I had previously asked my mom last night to wake me up a little earlier than 6am just so that I can get all of my belongings ready. Instead, I get a call from scsa saying that he’s already here. “-___-x;†was my facial expression as I was woken up suddenly as the phone rang >.> 5-10 minutes later I finally make it out to where he had parked. We greet each other again, and all the other stuff that friends do. We then proceed to our wondrous trip.
(Around 1pm; same day)
We arrive at scsa’s hometown of Livermore, CA. It’s quite the nice place to live in, as it appears similar to my hometown down in Southern CA. We go and meet up with several of his friends which are really awesome people to talk to.
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Location // San Jose, CA
Time // 11:55pm
Event // Fanime 2007
Day// # 1
well, my new buddies and I didn’t even go to sleep throughout the night, so I decided that it was time to use my laptop to go online since we were really bored and since my laptop was the only one capable of reaching more wireless access points compared to scsa’s. Lol …. but anyway, we spend the night just doing random things while watching digimon (scsa’s note: Digimon sucks but second season Mimi is cute). Later throughout the night (or morning now I should say rather, michael starts to play Super Swing Gold on the Wii since he likes that game now. Then around 8am that morning we go to the convention center in San Jose to go pick up our badges and go get some breakfast. After we arrive, he takes the honors in showing me around the convention center just so I can get a feel on how/where things are. Then as we’re walking around, we start to get photos of cosplayers! (yay!) After a while of being there we go back to our friend’s place in Livermore to get our luggages ready to take to the hotel room we will be staying in.
As we reach the hotel room later that night, we go in to get ourselves accommodated with the room and set our belongings and then pass out sooner or later. (Finally after 2 long ass days with no sign of sleep whatsoever.)
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Location // San Jose, CA
Time // approx. 6:00AM
Event // Fanime 2007
Day// # 2
I had woken up to the chilling temperatures of the hotel room’s AC. No one else was awake other than me, so I was really bored on not being able to find something to do. Eventually more people start to wake up, but still haven’t talked to one another yet as I am still trying to wake up myself even after writing this (8:30am presently). And now there is some construction going on outside and made us wonder what they were doing…..
Around 1 or 2pm, we are in the Hotel Room playing Super Smash Bros. Melee on my friend’s Gamecube, and began to get owned again (I suck with using a Gamecube controller nowadays) >.> and I was still awaiting the time on when I would go to the Play! Concert.
The time now is about 5:30 and I am in the Karaoke room waiting for me turn to go up. So a few minutes passed by and it was eventually my turn to go up. I had sung Velvet Underworld by Weiss Kreuz. Awesome show if you ask me.
Fast forwarding to approximately 6:30pm the same night, I go into the cafe section of the convention center to once again steal their WiFi Internet.
The time is now 8pm…. And FINALLY can I witness one of the coolest video game symphonies around. Everyone goes into the venue, gets their freebies, and then go to the balcony to get seated. Then around 8:10 the concert begins and greatness is born. The pieces they played were from the Mario, Shenmue, Oblivion, Lair, The Darkness, Halo, Zelda, Chrono Trigger/Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy, and another piece I forget about already.
At approximately 10pm the concert ends and I go outside all happy-like because I really enjoyed it 100 percent. Afterwards I start walking around and eventually get lost somehow (yes I was stupid enough to get lost) so I met this one guy who was also lost, so we walked around together in hopes of finding the convention center… in which we did. I guess we were destined to get lost so that we could keep each other from getting even more lost. Now, around 11pm I finally make my way to the convention center, go up to my room, and begin blogging what you are seeing right now. And now it is time to sleep so I will blog more tomorrow. D:
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Location // San Jose, CA
Time // approx. 11:50PM
Event // Fanime 2007
Day// # 3
Well today, Scsa and I met a friend of mine from the Anime-Expo forums. She was really cool.
Then we went to Sekihiko-san’s panel. Afterwards Scsa and I went walking around a bit more and then went to the Masquerade later on, where we met Lynne again ^^. Afterwards, Scsa and I decided to go to dinner @ a Jack In the Box since we were both starving.
That’s about all that went on day 3. Not too exciting. lol
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Location // San Jose, CA | Livermore, CA
Time // approx. 8:00AM
Event // Fanime 2007
Day// # 4
Well, this morning I had woken up around 4AM due to unknown reasons. Then again around 6AM only to find that Scsa and one other guy were still sleeping. So around 7AM, I finally begin to wake up completely, only to find Scsa reading a manga.
In present-time, which now happens to be 8:30am exactly, I am here writing this out while listening to Megadeth’s ‘A Tout Le Monde (Set Me Free)’ on my PSP since my laptop’s power supply was snapped into pieces somehow last night. But at least I got to fulfill my mission this year… which was to have a picture taken of me “battling†a Sephiroth & Cloud cosplayer. (I was cosplaying as Reno).
The time is now 11:10pm & I am eagerly waiting for tomorrow to arrive so that I can finally go home. So many things have happened in a week’s time frame that even now I am beginning to cry a bit while writing this as I am going to miss my new friends that I have made over the weekend here in Northern California.
Although it was nice to be able to hang out with Scsa and his friends, I really did enjoy their company. I’ll be totally honest when I say this … but I really do like the guy. He is surely a cool person to hang out with once you get to know him.
Another year, another convention attended. Only next year will it keep getting better …
</end of Fanime 2007>
Now Playing —–
Artist // Weiß Kreuz
Album // Die Bleibende Erinnerung
Song // Beautiful Alone
January 1st, 2007 by Shades
here I am … standing in the darkness.
here I am … surrounded by the night.
it’s the turn of the new year and already I have just about had it with certain people, and am deciding on my own free will to finally break away from them. I’m sorry to say this to certain friends of mine who visit that place, but you know … if only you’d stop treating me like a ghost and shit, this would never happen. so I’d rather just go away and pretend that nothing of this nature never occurred.
the times I’ve spent there were all fun and all at times .. but you know what, it’s over.
1000 times goodbye from teh Turk of Shadows. :d
(this doesn’t affect x111.com people btw xD)
