Dress by BUCK-TICK

kagami no mae de kimi to madoromu usubeni no yubisaki
sono te wa fui ni yowasa wo misete
kuchibiru wo fusai da
ano hi kimi to yakusoku wo kawashita
ima hwa futari omoidasezu ni

taikutsu na uta ni mimi wo katamuke mado no soto mitsumeru
boku wa DORESU (DRESS) wo matoi odotte miseyou
kurutteru kai oshiete
itsuka kaze ni sarawarete yuku darou
ima wa futari omoidasezu

boku wa naze kaze no you ni kumo no you ni
ano sora he to ukabu hane ga nai naze
hoshi no you ni tsuki no you ni subete tsutsumu ano yoru he to shizumu hane ga nai
aa

wasurenaide ai afureta ano hibi
kimi no kao mo omoidasezu ni
itsuka kaze ni kaki kesarete yuku darou
ima wa futari omoidasezu

boku wa naze kaze no you ni kumo no you ni
ano sora he to ukabu hane ga nai naze
hoshi no you ni tsuki no you ni subete tsutsumu ano yoru he to shizumu hane ga nai
aa

boku wa naze kaze no you ni kumo no you ni
ano sora he to ukabu hane ga nai naze
kono ai mo kono kizu mo natsukashii
ima wa itoshiikute itamidasu aa

Found this cool CG in some guys deviantART page and emailed him asking if I

could use it. He said yes, which made about 2-3 hours of fiddleing with

PhotoShop worthwhile. Anyway here are my latest peices of debachery:

and

Dude’s page can be found here.

Anyway,  two of my best friends are feuding right now and that’s not the easiest thing to deal with. I try to pride myself on being a neutral ground but it’s not the simplest of tasks. I know they can see this and maybe it would be good for them to see what’s going on in my head at the moment. One of them shows up after weeks of hearing nothing, piles the shit on and then hangs around for a bit. Then the other comes around and does the same thing only to be the same story, just a different flavor.

I wonder sometimes why I even started to socalize with people and the best I can figure is the human need for compainionship. I mean, don’t get me wrong. I don’t see anything bad about either. And if I really did have any real rants about the subject they would go to a neutral party (one of which would never be revealed here) and that is the end of that business.

I’ve found over the past five years, more so the last two. That friendship is important in depths I didn’t even think were possible. I mean, my concept of those around me has improved markedly. I used to not care, now I can’t help wondering what others think. Some would consider that a decline, a weakness even. But I’m finding I’m becomeing attached more then I’d like some times. But in the same breath, I couldn’t be more greatful or content.

It seems that the shell is finally breaking away after all these years and revealing a very scared and afraid little boy with stunted social skills and a nack for saying off the wall things. Sometimes I look back and wonder how I ever made the friends that I did before I became aware of others. Guess that’s the question of the ages no?

For those who have not been added already.

He’s a stranger to some
And a vision to none
He can never get enough,
Get enough of the one

For a fortune he’d quit
But it’s hard to admit
How it ends and begins
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn’t want to read the message here

On a mountain he sits, not of gold but of sin
through the blood he can learn, see the life that it turn
From council of one
He’ll decide when he’s done with the innocent

On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)

From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn’t want to read the message
He doesn’t want to read the message
Doesn’t want to read the message here

On his face is a map of the world

From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn’t want to read the message here
From yesterday,
From yesterday,
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday,
From yesterday
But he doesn’t want to read the message here
But he doesn’t want to read the message here
But he doesn’t want to read the message here

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Rammstein - Wo bist du? (Where are you?)

Deutsch

Ich liebe dich
Ich liebe dich nicht
Ich liebe dich nicht mehr
Ich liebe dich nicht mehr oder weniger als du
Als du mich geliebt hast
Als du mich noch geliebt hast

Die schönen Mädchen sind nicht schön
Die warmen Hände sind so kalt
Alle Uhren bleiben stehen
Lachen ist nicht mehr gesund und bald

Such ich dich hinter dem Licht
Wo bist du ?
So allein will ich nicht sein
Wo bist du ?

Die schönen Mädchen sind nicht schön
Die warmen Hände sind so kalt
Alle Uhren bleiben stehen
Lachen ist nicht mehr gesund, und bald

Ich suche dich hinter dem Licht
Wo bist du ?
So allein will ich nicht sein
Wo bist du ?
Ich such dich unter jedem Stein
Wo bist du ?
Ich schlaf mit einem Messer ein

Wo bist du ?

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Englisch

I love you
I love you not
I love you no more
I love you no more or less than you
Than you loved me
When you still loved me

The pretty girls are not pretty
The warm hands are so cold
All clocks have stopped
It’s no longer healthy to laugh, and soon

I’ll look for you behind the light
Where are you
I don’t want to be so alone
Where are you ?

The pretty girls are not pretty
The warm hands are so cold
All clocks have stopped
It’s no longer healthy to laugh, and soon

I look for you behind the light
Where are you ?
I don’t want to be so alone
Where are you ?
I look for you under every stone
Where are you ?
I fall asleep with a knife

Where are you ?

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The former reminds me of a past self and the latter I just like the way it sounds

Anyway, heres a treat, my current desktop …>

I only crashed for about six hours and got back up again because I kinda promised gram that I would go buy her new sheets for her bed yesterday and slept all morning. So it’s off to Wal-Mart with me in a few hours. After I get back I’ll try to get that IC opener finished with the sincere hope that it will re fire the RP section. But then again, if I don’t have the interest to write it today then it wont be written. And I still have that core for Lunar Guardians to finish and try to get up this month or the next. Not to mention the HiME project. *eyes spin*

I feel good to be back and be in the thick of things. I’m happy to be writing again. But that still doesn’t mean my timetables for completion will hold any better.