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Ambeon – Fate of a Dreamer

Fate of a Dreamer

01. Estranged
02. Ashes
03. High
04. Cold metal
05. Fate (instrumental)
06. Sick ceremony
07. A lost message
08. Surreal
09. Sweet little brother

Estranged

no need
to talk
you cut me off and pull away
the heat is freezing again
it tears out my heart

disguise

pretend
break down the whole fantasy
the distance remains, everlasting
it leaves me wondering

why do you change this fast
it’s not fair

feel again
that’s what we’ve missed

the whole time
misplaced love remains, everlasting
it leaves me wondering

why do you change this fast
it’s not fair

As I am staring into infinity a deep dark tunnel materializes before me. It’s power is too compelling. A huge source of energy draws me inside…

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Ashes

into the heat
swallowed into that hole
melted down
burned to ashes
and the ashes flew in the wind
taken by breath
as I breathe on

shadows in my head
when I’m too high to think
give me my view

burned to ashes
and the ashes flew in the wind
taken by breath
as I breathe on

ease my whirlwind
you thought so
these aren’t your concerns
they’re ours

this is not what we wanted in the first place
but it’s okay
after all
it’s been called

the fate of a dreamer

loved by only you
it is all I allow
it has been called the fate of a dreamer

It must be my immaculate innocence that keeps me dreaming and dreaming…

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High

blow out the candlelight
look at the shadows on the wall
just follow your heart
you’ve waited long enough

don’t turn me down and say you won’t
cause then you’d lie to me
and no, you cannot lie to me

I would see

and now I know it’s time to possess your mind, whole
and now I know it’s time to give away what I saved

I’ve got the feeling that it will be this time
I’ve got the feeling that it won’t be right, won’t be wrong
I’ve got the feeling you’re arousing my senses
I’ve got the feeling that I have to feel, have to feel

and you will take me, high, so high
and you will take me, high, so high

so high
so high
high
high

Slowly I awake, lost and forlorn. Time keeps fading, but no one
seems to have time for me. I count the hopeless seconds, seconds turning into

minutes, into hours, days, weeks, years, centuries…

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Cold Metal

lying on my back on a railway
looking at the sky and its full moon
in the back of my head I feel the rumbling wheels
shaking my memories

it’s getting darker and darker and darker
my hands are frozen and steam comes out of my mouth
as I whisper
my last words
seem to fade away

the train is moving forward
and closer
can’t stand up and walk away

once I made my mind up so long ago
now I can’t change
it is just too bad

I feel so left alone, so forgotten
nobody knows where I am, no one misses me
cold water runs from my eyes
and the cold is freezing my last tears
like I ‘m only half in my body, I can’t feel

I think I’m already half gone, I can’t think
It’s getting colder and colder and colder
I can’t breath

cold metal, burning in my back
cold cold metal, freezing
cold metal, my head will burst open
cold cold metal, it’s been too much

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Fate (instrumental)

I wish I could be loved for who I am
not for someone I pretend to be

It think I am obsessed by a picture in my head that weakens me. Now all that remains is an echo in the wind, carrying my voice and resonating with my last words…

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Sick Ceremony

their little girl said
don’t tell me how you feel
you don’t understand
she painted the people
she disgusted on her way down
all there is left now

is a picture of them
with their faces on it, and it’s my fault

black roses
as black as her hair
white sheets
as pale as her face

she crossed her fingers
and apologised to them

then she flew off
into the stream
went to the light
which faded meanwhile
into the scratches on her cheeks
and her raining soul

red blood
as red as her lips

oh believe me
I loved her too much

I have been taught to believe in a force of light, a guiding light. An
endless light, one with never failing helpers. I was told that the light surrounds me with love and peace and harmony.
But, what now? What about the lies? What about the hurt? This force must have caused that, too…

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A Lost Message

all day long I sit by the riverside
watching the sunrise and the colours it brings
here I can sing, ’cause there’s no one around
some birds fly above me, flying so free

remember an angel as she sat beside me
here by the riverside
I looked into her big blue eyes and loved her like rain
then she flew away like the bird she was before

I saw her flying into the sunset
as the sky turned to black and she faded from view
next morning by sunrise I watched and waited
waited for the bird that was my angel within’

but she never returned
and I’m still waiting
where is she
is she gone

was she murdered by a man, thinking that she was just some bird

all day long I sit by the riverside
watching the sunrise and sunset
I’m waiting for my angel to appear
but I’ll have to accept I’ll never see her again

’cause she never returned
and I’m still waiting

where is she

They forced the light into tears. They violated my trust. They caused me to obliterate my carefree past only to make me depend on them. I now regret trusting them with my love…

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Surreal

I know I should love you
but I simply can’t

all you do is letting me down
and my heart too
what is love, if you love me
like you say
then love is a little sick

and love is a little surreal
and they are a little surreal
surreal

All of a sudden distorted memories flash through my head as if to tell me something. The little pieces are forming a story – a never ending
story. a haunting one..

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Sweet Little Brother

can’t exactly remember what’s happened
I think I came home late

he stood in the doorway, waiting for me
I saw he was holding a big sharp knife
pointing at me
I got scared and asked ‘What’s wrong, what are you doing boy, are you mad’

but no answer at all, he just came closer and closer
no sense at all, he just came closer and closer
I began to run, but he came closer and closer
I ran for my life

he was so much faster than me
and he caught me near the lake, I fell
I was so confused, I could hear my gasping breath
still he was moving closer, holding his knife
I must have taken it
and then killed him
’cause he lied too still, open wounds, bleeding
grass and water turned red

oh boy, what have I done, he was my sweet little brother
oh boy, how come, I killed my sweet little brother
oh God, look at him, look at this guilty, lifeless body
I killed my sweet little brother

I never heard his voice
until I watched him die
now voices chase me
including his

no, they’re all his

I can’t help but wonder whether I’m blessed or cursed to be the vessel for that perpetual stream of looming, dire visions.
It must be the fate… of a dreamer..

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