Monday blogday

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
– Frank Herbert, Dune – Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear

Nice quote (from one of my fave books).
The problem with a lot of nice quotes is that they work so much better in theory than practice.

Got some books on C# and Javascript yesterday, now all I need is time (and energy) to read them.
Have to do something neh.

Listening to:
Vanessa Carlton – A thousand miles
(heard it on the radio today, had to Google for the name, now it’s on repeat)


Mwahaha *coughs*

How would you survive the end of the world?

Cunning. Through use of many of life’s faculties,
you’ve managed to suceed greatly. It may not
seem so to many, but isn’t the the point most
times? It’s only a matter of knowing more then
the others, right? I’m scared of people like
you, but in the same time, admire the ability
to see more then just the big picture; you see
yourself in it every time. You survived the end
by knowing who to knock down so you got that
last spot in the bunker… nicely done.



(in other words, 0 ideas for a title)

Diary of Dreams – Dream Collector finally came in the mail, with some ad flyers and stuff added to the package and a DoD card which upon closer inspection seemed to have been autographed by DoD’s Adrian Hates. Can’t beat that for extra value )

Friday was fun, going to dinner with Crog, his gf and CommS, then to Once upon a time in Mexico. Interesting movie, lots of cool action scenes but it felt more like a collection of scenes than a movie.
Followed by drinkage in ze pub after which C and I wandered off to hook up with Angel & friends. Funniest 2+ hours I ever spent in a snackbar o.O

Played Enemy Territory for the first time last night… I sucketh.



Several inches of snow laying outside, my drive to work this morning was more sliding than driving.
Winter weather, winter mood.
My subconscious is annoying the fuck out of me, while I’m rationally at peace with some of the recent events my nights are plagued by sleeplessness and nightmares, waking up I can feel in my gums that once more I’ve been grinding my teeth in my sleep.
Too much has been going on and the knowledge that I’ll be out of a job in 3 months without pretty much any chance of getting a new one without totally switching careers seems to cut away the last bit of stability, leaving me once more to contemplate the future from a ‘Where the hell do I go from here?’ point of view on pretty much all aspects of my life.
Time will tell I guess…
It’s winter.


The Other Side

Didn’t know in which category to stick this, it originally started out as a splash for a new private website but I abandoned that idea, then I showed it to some people and they used it as a wallpaper, so wallpaper it is…


1,2,3, in da place to be…

Ehm, right. Well… after several weeks of offline activities I’m back online, so this is just a random bullshit entry to inform you of that joyous occasion.
And seeing as that pretty much concludes my meaningful news for the day seeing as this IS after all a public blog and I for one have never been inclined to post anything too personal on here I’ll leave you with this:
Weird shit


24 hours

The longest day, quite possibly. I haven’t slept much… I’m excited, nervous, a wreck from serious loss of sleep and I don’t know what I’m going to be doing for the next 24 hours.
In 24 hours she’ll be here, just 1 more day.
Time for coffee.


Time flies

Ah, the joys of updates.
Lessee… 13 days til Shimi… got told last week I’ll be out of a job in a few months… got a Pentium 4 with Asus mobo for free from some nutter who would probably prefer to remain nameless p… 2 skins added to the blogs… 2 new subforums to be added soon… I’m hoping Christmas will be over soon, I’m really missing her >.>…
Nope, I’m definitely not blog-material *grins*



Stuff I ate today:
Pita gyros (extra large),
spaghetti (and lots of it),
pancakes (about 7 or 8),
a litre of creamy yoghurt with strawberries,
random other stuff and lots of coffee an soda to flush it down.
In other words, I’m quitting smoking, lol, and it’s haaaaaaaaaaaard.
It’s amazing what it’s doing to my appetite (I’m not even going in to the rest of the reactions o.O). It’s now been 84 hours since my last cig *twitches* and if weren’t for Shimi supporting me I’d prolly be typing this while lurking on a nice… yummy… droolworthy… soothing… cigarette.
*blinks and sips coffee*

Work in progress... home!
Trying to get all/most of the new code working before I start on the eyecandy.