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My top 10 of favorite albums


Having listened to so much different music I’ve always ducked out of those blog meme’s where people tag you to make a top 10 list, it’s just not something I can shake out of my sleeve that quickly. This needs careful consideration and pondering. I don’t just want to grab the 10 albums I’m listening to the most at the moment, for it to be a real top 10 of my all time favorite albums I need to think long hard and include some music I might not have listened to in years but has still been influential. So here we are at last, my top 10 of all time favorite albums, maybe slightly colored by my current taste after all, but as complete as it’ll ever be.
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Kamelot – The Black Halo


The black halo

01. March of Mephisto
02. When the Lights Are Down
03. The Haunting (Somewhere In Time)
04. Soul Society
05. Interlude I: Dei Gratia
06. Abandoned
07. This Pain
08. Moonlight
09. Interlude II: Un Assassinio Molto Silenzioso
10. The Black Halo
11. Nothing Ever Dies
12. Memento Mori
13. Interlude III: Midnight – Twelve Tolls For A New Day
14. Serenade

March of Mephisto

You know just who I am
Don’t be so distant
Cause when you’re lost

I am solely there to share your grief

Wailing for your sorrow
Is only my way to comfort you
Reminders of innocent youth
Waiting for morrow you’re lonely
I name your solitude
I speaketh the truth

Now tell me all about your pain

Down to the detail
Don’t say it’s love
Your fragile heart feeds my contempt

Wailing for your sorrow
Is only my way to comfort you
Reminders of innocent youth
Waiting for morrow you’re lonely
I name your solitude

I speaketh the truth

Chase the heathen call
We belong…you and I
Unison in all you deny

I am the thorn in your side
That seeks accomplishment
Reminding the mortal of death
I am the spore of your pride

An angel heavensent
The master of all
I am the urge of the flesh

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When the Lights Are Down

Rules without exceptions last eternally
Every move you make creates your destiny

I’ve come to soak my sorrow in halo black
As black as the seal on my soul

Cause when the lights are down
There’s no more to say
Love is the real pain
An internal revolution in our minds
And when the lights are down
You’re so far away

Tell me your real name
In the silence of the darkness we unite

[Rules without exceptions last eternally
Every move you make creates your destiny]
What can protect me from the past
And all the things that I have done
She told me and then she was gone

But when the lights are down

There’s no more to say
Deep in the shadows
Where the last of my delusions made a stand
Cause when the lights are down
She’ll take me away
Tell me her real name
And in death we’ll live the love we never had

Come all ye faithful beneath the moon

Into the void as one
Marching on

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The Haunting (Somewhere In Time)

Merely the sound of your voice
Made me believe that you were her
Just like the river disturbs

…my inner peace
One I believed I could find
Just a trace of her beloved soul
Once I believed she was all
Then she smothered my beliefs

One cold winter’s night
I may follow her voice to the river
Leave me for now and forever

Leave while you can

Somewhere in time
I will find you and haunt you again
Like the wind sweeps the earth
Somewhere in time
When no virtues are left to defend
I was a liar in every debate
I rule the forces that fuelled your hate

When the cold in my heart leaves
It comes to an end
And quietly I’ll go to sleep

How could that first time recur
When memories linger on
What made me think you were her
Helena is dead to all
Nothing can bring her to life

Don’t pretend that I’ll be loving you
Once I believed she was gone
But I’m corrupted from within

Somewhere in time
I will find you and haunt you again
Like the wind sweeps the earth
Somewhere in time
When no virtues are left to defend

You fall
I was a liar in every debate
I rule the forces that fuelled your hate
When the cold in my heart leaves
It comes to an end
And quietly I’ll go to sleep

[Ariel]
Follow me into the light

Leave me tonight
I’ve gone too far to begin all anew
With someone like you

[Marguerite]
Like ice on a lake of tears
I’ll take you through
Life fades in anew
With someone like you

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Soul Society

If my soul could revive
From my carnal remains
What does it matter to me
If it all fades to black
If I’m born once again

Then noone really is free
How could I be condemned
For the things that I’ve done
If my intentions were good
I guess I’ll never know
Some things under the sun
Can never be understood

How can we believe in heaven

Human reason counters all
Ideas of a soul society
My life is just a fragment
Of the universe and all
There must be more than I can see

In the dark we’re the same
In the concept of time
We’re like a grain of sand

And we strive for the flame
As if death was our aim
Cause we cannot understand

How I wish there was heaven
All for one and one for all
A flawless soul society
Our lives are just a fragment
Of the universe and all

There may be more than we can see

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Interlude I: Dei Gratia

SUB SOLE NIHIL NOVI EST
AD ASPERA PER ASPERA
QUAERITE PRIME REGNUM DEI
ANTE BELLUM MEMENTO MORI

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Abandoned

Once my life was plain and clear
I recall
Once my ignorance was bliss
Nightfall came
Like a serpent’s kiss

To my troubled mind

Why my God
Have you abandoned me
In my sobriety
Behind the old facade
I’m your bewildered child
So take me cross the river wide

Binding promises were made

On my soul
Grand illusions lead astray
Ice cold winds swept my heart away
Bring me back to you

[Helena]
I remember a song
Like in a dream
Where September was long

And winter unreal

Why my God above
Have you abandoned me
In my sobriety
Behind the old facade
I’m your bewildered child
So take me cross the river wide

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This Pain

Pushing for the limit of sanity
Pushing for the surface
…so I can breathe
Dark is the night for us all, but some days
I feel the light crawling down from these jagged walls
Blessed sunlight

Some of this pain is sole subjected
But what was I to do
Some of this pain will always stay
Deep and true

I left her with a warning… without protection
The human nature has it’s ways with lust
With her back against the wall she crumbled
Just a minute more would have saved her life

And even so… part of me
Blessed sunlight

Some of this pain is sole subjected
But what was I to do
Some of this pain will always stay
Deep and true

I see her shame in my desire
It all took place too soon

Some of these wounds will always bleed
Over you

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Moonlight

I have never craved the system’s sympathy
I get restless over pity smiles
Some precaution wouldn’t harm my history

If I had the will to wait a little while

You cut the silence like a knife
You know I can’t repent for all

Moonlight falling over me
Sail on where the shadows hide
Moonlight crawling down on me
Just like you could not compete with my pride

Compensation for a misconducted life
Is it way too much to ask
Hard to wake up
With your heart and soul deprived
When the morning comes
The second to your last

You cut the silence like a knife
At the edge of my last defences

You cut the silence like a knife
You know I won’t repent for all

Moonlight falling over me
Sail on where the shadows hide
Moonlight crawling down on me
Just like you could not compete with my pride

Shine on silver from the sky into the night
Gaia shivers and I need your leading light

Moonlight falling over me
Sail on where the shadows hide
Moonlight crawling down on me
Just like you could not compete with my pride

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The Black Halo

Come wind

Come snow
Come winterland
I have resigned myself to death
Come will to show the hidden hand
So I can draw my final breath
You could take me higher
So you said and I trusted you
I may be a liar, but betrayal lies on you

I can feel when the journey ends
Final call for a last defence

Darkness come tonight
I have no fear of what you hold
Darkness come alive
You are the stories I’ve been told

I possess the power
Of survival in the cold

Life is like a flower
As it stumbles out of fall

We all know when our time has come
This is where I will linger on

Darkness come tonight
I have no fear of what you hold
Darkness come alive
You are the stories I’ve been told

Darkness come tonight
Nothing can take my faith away
Darkness come alive
Life fades to black from silver grey

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Nothing Ever Dies

Here we are

Under the same old sun
All alone yet somehow bound and unified
Dust to dust…
Ashes to ashes won’t take long
We search for a harbour
Somewhere to belong

They say that faith is all you need
To stay forever young

What you’ve sown is what you reap
Our sins can’t be undone

There is a god in each society
So right is wrong where wrong is right
Noone could be sure
Still we are certain
That what we know is truth
The only truth

We’re building our temples taller

They say that faith is all you need
To stay forever young
What you’ve sown is what you reap
Our sins can’t be undone

How can we trust them once again
They used to tell us lies
Their voices will sustain

Cause nothing ever dies

Love is the only truth

Pure as the well of youth
Until it breaks your heart
You took me higher
Than the mountains I have climbed
You waited all your life for me
You left me all alone behind

But we’ll meet again
We will meet again

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Memento Mori

Who wants to separate
The world we know from our beliefs
And who sees only black and white

Distinguish loss from sacrifice
Some day we may come to peace
With the world within ourselves
And I will await you
Until I close my eyes

When your time has come
You know you’ll be lonely once again
And the final winter comes to us all

Life is treacherous
But you’re not the only who must pretend

We’re a second in time
We’re the last in the line
Of the prey that walks the earth
Good and evil combined

I am the god in my own history
The master of the game

I may believe if she would come to me
And whisper out my name
Sometimes I wonder where the wind has gone
If life has ever been
Sometimes I wonder how belief alone
Can cut me free from sin

When you close your eyes
Mementos of summer retrieves your mind

Like a drizzle afternoon cleans the air
When the winter blows
You’re glad you remember you really tried

And it comes to an end
Even winter… life fall
And we all have our beliefs
Pray for mercy for all

I am a man without a mystery

The deal is done within
I will embrace the coldest winter breeze
And pay for every sin

[Helena]
VICTORIA, NON PRAEDA
MEMENTO MORI

[Mephisto]
UNA VOCE… VOLO, NON VALEO

DULCE ET DECORUM EST
PRO PATRIA MORI
MEMENTO MORI

[Ariel]
So subservant in your embrace
No more denial
No run away
This is the final

My last recall
And that’s the price for what we learn
The more we know the more we yearn
Cause we’re so alone

I am a man without a mystery
The deal is done within
I will embrace the coldest winter breeze
The journey can begin

I’m still the god in my own history
I still believe that she will come to me
And whisper out my name

Some day we will come to peace
And reach beyond behind the lies
And I will await you
Until I close my eyes

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Serenade

Songs of pain and soothing lullabies
Songs of happiness and some that make us cry
One song we share
The cross we all bear
One that segregates
One that unifies

All we wonder
Noone ever denies
If once given life we must die

So bow down with me
Where summer fades into fall
And leave your hatchets of hate
Bow down with me
And sing the saddest of all

The song we all serenade

The more we know
The less we understand
Life… eternity
The savagery of man
We want it all
Aimed at the fall
What is destiny with the masterplan

All we wonder
Noone ever denies
If once given life we must die

So bow down with me
Where summer fades into fall
And leave your hatchets of hate
Bow down with me
And sing the saddest of all

The song we all serenade

Hold on now
Don’t leave don’t let it go
Dance away the wallz of life
Right or wrong
The seed we never sow
That’s our loss
Our sacrifice

What does the winter bring
If not yet another spring

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Kamelot – Karma

Karma

01. Regalis Apertura
02. Forever
03. Wings of Despair
04. The Spell
05. Don’t You Cry
06. Karma
07. The Light I Shine on You
08. Temples of Gold
09. Across the Highlands
Elizabeth:
10. I. Mirror Mirror
11. II. Requiem for the Innocent
12. III. Fall From Grace

Forever

there’s a pain within
that I can’t define
there’s an empty space

where your love used to shine
from the night we met
till the day you died
do you think I wished
do you still believe I tried

all too soon we were divided
and life had just begun

will you revive

from the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever

I belong to you
you belong to me
it’s the way things are

always meant to be
like the morning star
and the rising sun
you convey my life
and forgive me what I’ve done

all too soon we were divided
in darkness and light

will you revive

from the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever

save me
reverse how I’m thinking of you
every breath I take

brings me closer
closer to forever, to you
I’m waiting for the day that I’m gone

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Wings of Despair

sometimes my visions
are distant and vague

down at the base
of the mountain
once in a while I am
weak and afraid
tired and sick of it all

I don’t believe
that my story is set
nothing is destined

or blatant
bound to this body
a world full of hate
no one will heed if I fall

no one can see it
but you know that it’s there
guiding the steps of your soul
holding the truth

in the cross that you bear
die with a heart that is bold

fly on the wings of despair
no one is holding you back
the call of the wild is internal
conquer the silence you fear
tomorrow will not fade to black
a new day is dawning

remember
no one’s controlling your fate

the questions are more
than the answers I know
that doesn’t mean you are lonely
searching for more
consecutive goal’s
making it worth to go on

no one can see it
but you know that it’s there
guiding the steps of your soul
holding the truth
in the cross that you bear
die with a heart that is bold

fly on the wings of despair
no one is holding you back

the call of the wild is internal
conquer the silence you fear
tomorrow will not fade to black
a new day is dawning
remember
no one’s controlling your fate

you, and you alone
is forging the path

leave your sorrows with the past

never believe
that the story is set
nothing is destined
or blatant
bound to this body
a world full of hate
no one will heed if you fall

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The Spell

where has all the magic gone
lost behind or lost along
a victim of the pulse of our society
don’t you miss the ancient times
the riddles and the subtle signs

a relative perspective on reality

I get stronger in the splendor
of a lucid moon
I’m a creature of the night

all my demons cast a spell
the souls of dusk rising from the ashes
so the book of shadows tell
the weak will always obey the master

heading for the dragons lair
another time and a different sphere
I leave the nothingness behind
and when the sense of logic yields
I’ll escape the outer shields
into the universal mind

I get stronger in the splendor
of a lucid moon

only creatures of the night
can heal my wounds

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Don’t You Cry

little by little
I’ve come to this point
on my own I’ve been searching my way

I lost you so early
the days went so fast
you don’t know I prayed every day

a song to remember
a song to forget
you’ll never know how I tried
to make you proud
and to honor your name but

you never told me goodbye

now that your are gone
casting shadows from the past
you and all the memories will last

don’t you cry
or suffer over me
I will be waiting for you
don’t you cry

angels never fade away
I’ll be watching over you
see you through

now I’m a man and
I’m feeling you still
could it be you were there all along
a time to surrender
a time to forgive

with solace I give you this song

now that you are gone
casting shadows from the past
in my dreams I hear your voice at last

don’t you cry
or suffer over me
I will be waiting for you
don’t you cry

angels never fade away
I’ll be watching over you

I can see you tonight
in the pale winter light
father and son again
the bond of blood will never end

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Karma

I am a king of honor
gold and glory
but every king must also die
have I been just and righteous
what is glory
I know I’ve torn and taken life

and here I stand

a small and simple man

who will trade his karma for my kingdom
a sacrificial rite to render truth
the fire in my soul rejects my wisdom
cause all you do in life comes back to you

I am a king in crisis
counting minutes
there is an ending to my reign

my sins have come to face me
I can feel it
that I have lived my life in vain

and now I know I’ll reap
the seeds I’ve sown

who will trade his karma for my kingdom
a sacrificial rite to render truth
the fire in my soul rejects my wisdom

cause all you do in life comes back to you

am I mad
I feel so void and cold
who can tell
who holds the stories untold
tired and trembling
I am descending
will I have to stay here

and live this life again

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The Light I Shine on You

yet a day is dawning
I am sad but also strong
this gift that I’ve been given
tells me where I do belong

falling I’m falling down
and you recall my strength
time will slowly pull me under
but you will catch my breath

this is a praise to all of you

cause the light I shine on you
is what you gave to me

I’m a crystal clear and true
I’m your cairn and creed

you think that I’m a mountain
but there’s a price I have to pay
for the love I have forsaken
can never be replaced

crying I’m crying out
be careful with my soul

unbounded I’m like water
but so fragile in the cold

and this is a praise to all of you

cause the light I shine on you
is what you gave to me
I’m a crystal clear and true
I’m your cairn and creed

the mysteries of life
take us high and low
the road can be long
it seems
someone is lost
but no one is free

falling I’m falling down
into your open arms

each and every gathered glow
maintains my shining star

this is a praise to all of you…

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Temples of Gold

I see you when it snows
in crystals dancing down

from a sultry sky
when silence is pure and unbreakable

I can see you smiling
in every frozen tear
I can hear you whisper “You and I”

little did we know
that they were life itself
the days passing by

we both had our share in the sacrifice

once upon a time
we had something beautiful
once upon a time
I thought “you and I”

take me wherever
the answer lingers in the sand
show me the way as the story unfolds

love is remote
in this wailing winter wonderland
show me the way to the temples of gold

bless me with a kiss
across the universe
when day and night converge
and whisper my name till I fall asleep

tell me tales from days bygone

tell me little lies
tell me once again it’s just “you and I”

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Across the Highlands

I’ve been witness to so many wars
that I’m blind to affliction
no ability left to remorse

it’s my faith and conviction

wide awake
in this world
full of hate
I unfurl

but I am damned
if life itself is condemnation
I am immortal

thus my freedom is captivity

flying all across the highlands
searching for a way
to finalize my history
rising high above the mountains
reaching for the sky
closer to my sanctuary

all my life I’ve been trying to die

reach complete segregation
I am ready to open my eyes
to a new revelation

lost in time
there’s no place
for my soul
in his embrace

for I am damned

if life itself is condemnation
I am immortal
thus my freedom is captivity
bound to live eternally

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Mirror Mirror

mirror can you tell me

how to stay forever young
let me know the secret
I will hold my twisted tongue

please protect my beauty
velvet skin so pure and white
hear my name resounding
like a hymn at dead of night

once I struck a servant

she’s a virgin free from sin
drops of blood caressed me
and refined my aging skin

could this be the answer
uncorrupted carmine red
voices keep resounding
in my dazed bewildered head

have I found myself eternity

someone has heard my prayers
now I’ll become divine

have I found myself divinity
I’m no longer a slave
to the vicious hands of time

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Requiem for the Innocent

mother can you hold me
one more time again
whisper “I still love you” in my ear
mother did you lie
would you tell me why
there is something deeper that I fear

justify the evil I portray
daggers in the darkness find your way

when the moon is full and piercing bright
drench me with your innocence tonight

don’t you want to die
walk beside me evermore
don’t you feel alive
like you’ve never felt before

visions of the future
unprofound and blurred

I have passed the point of no return

justify the evil I portray
let me keep my beauty one more day
when the moon is full and piercing bright
drench me with your innocence tonight

don’t you want to die
walk beside me evermore
don’t you feel alive

like you’ve never felt before

don’t you want to die
souls transcending, silver shine
don’t you feel alive
your blood preserves my place in time

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Fall from Grace

breathe in deep
smell these halls of hate
carve your name into these walls
before it is too late

cold and twisted
they resisted
what was I to do
all I ever wanted was

a fraction of the truth

walking in the shadows
of my blackened mind
lost inside this shallow
vanity of time

what if there’s a God a hell and heaven
fire is the torment I must face
dying by the souls I have forsaken

no one’s going to catch my fall from grace

[bleed on me]
watch me from your cage
as I rejoin my painful prime
[suffer and exhale]
you and I are relics
we provoke and we recline

walking in the shadows

of my blackened mind
angels crave my sorrow
sorrow they will find

what if there’s a God a hell and heaven
fire is the torment I must face
dying by the souls I have forsaken
no one’s going to catch my fall from grace

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