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Poisonblack – Lust Stained Despair

Lust Stained Despair

01. Nothing Else Remains
02. Hollow Be My Name
03. The Darkest Lie
04. Rush
05. Nail
06. Raivotar
07. Soul In Flames
08. Pain Becomes Me
09. Never Enough
10. Love Controlled Despair
11. The Living Dead

Nothing Else Remains

Can’t push aside this feeling no longer I’m able
I need to poison myself to stay sane and stable

I’ve lost control of everything I’ve kept inside me
Slipping on razor’s edge I hope you’d finally find me

But I justify my desire to no one
I won’t deny that I need it bad to go on

My jaded heart is yours to poison with your flame

Take me away over to somewhere
Where the fire reigns and where nothing else remains
Together alone waiting for nothing
In where the fire reigns and where nothing else remains

Looking through broken glass I see the twisted faces
Spitting and smiling at me with sharpened embraces

But I justify my desire to no one
I won’t deny that I need it bad to go on

My jaded heart is yours to poison with your flame

Take me away over to somewhere
Where the fire reigns and where nothing else remains
Together alone waiting for nothing
In where the fire reigns and where nothing else remains

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Hollow Be My Name

I see black
I see red
All other shades are beaten dead
You’re pure crystal
The tempting sin

Can’t you see that I am giving in… to you?

The is the state you’ve left me breathing in
Struggling between this hate and suffering

Come, shake the leeches off me
and help me see through bloodshot eyes
Don’t close the circle around me
for hollow will be my name

I feel black
I feel red
As all the other emotions are playing dead
You’re living fire
The cunning lie
Can’t you see how we both deserve to die

This is the state you’ve left me rotting in
Struggling between this guilt and suffering

Come, shake the leeches off me and help me see through bloodshot eyes
Don’t say you won’t die with me for we are one we are the same
Come, break the silence in me and help me cleanse the bloodstained lies
Don’t close the circle around me for hollow will be my name

Come, shake the leeches off me and help me see through bloodshot eyes
Don’t say you won’t die with me for we are one we are the same
Come, break the silence in me and help me cleanse the bloodstained lies
Don’t close the circle around me for hollow will be my, for hollow will be my name

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The Darkest Lie

There you lay
Innocence in heat
The tension builds up with the scent so sweet

And you close your eyes

And you give into wholly
And you inhale the scent unholy

Come and praise the darkest lie

Here I lay
In my darkest suit
The afterglow’s devouring all of the truth

And I close my eyes

And I give into it wholly
And I inhale the scent unholy

Come and praise the darkest lie

And on and on we…
Come and praise the darkest lie

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Rush

I can’t help but follow in spite of going insane
For I know you’ll swallow the whole of my pain
I, I’m stepping out of the light to feel what darkness can sow
I stare at the dead red lie…just one glance and I know

All disguised beneath the smile of the temptress, siren, evil child
the devil’s sweetest whore

Cause you’re feeding the fire within me
Cause you’re making me feel so alive
Cause it’s only the end of the suffering and I’m drowning in this rush

Cause you’re feeding the fire within me
Cause you’re making it real for awhile
Cause it’s truly the end of the suffering and I’m drowning in this rush

I was down, now flying… going nowhere fast
There’s no denying I need this feeling to last

I breathe in and get higher and the ache fades from sharp to dull
The knives of desire… I feel them all

A thousand cuts still leave me cold
Give me more this soul’s been sold and I hope this time I won’t wake up dead

Cause you’re feeding the fire within me
Cause you’re making it real for awhile
Cause it’s truly the end of the suffering and I’m drowning in this rush

Don’t blame yourself for what you can’t ignore? Don’t blame yourself for wanting more and more and more
Flesh on flesh raising breaths on breaths
I love, I love the rush of death…

Cause you’re feeding the fire within me
Cause you’re making me feel so alive
Cause it’s only the end of the suffering and I’m drowning in this rush

Cause you’re feeding the fire within me
Cause you’re making it real for awhile

Cause it’s truly the end of the suffering and I’m drowning in this rush

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Nail

A pure smooth pearl a sweet disorder swaying in the dress
An electric fur in lace a whoredom blooms between her legs
Just one look into those heavenly pair of "take me"-eyes

Mine’s the pleasure as I force-feed her all my lies

The redhot nail inside of you
The redhot nail inside of you

I am the nail
Now drunk on lust I drown in you
Tension prevails and it takes me over again
I am the nail
Forever within I’m lost in you

Deeper with pain as it takes me over again

I taste lead in every drop I spit out my throat
I crave death with every kiss I can’t live without
An overwhelming state is burning through my every vein
Mine’s the pleasure as I force-feed her all my pain

The redhot nail inside of you
The redhot nail inside of you

I am the nail
Now drunk on lust I drown in you
Tension prevails and it takes me over again
I am the nail
Forever within I’m lost in you
Deeper with pain as it takes me over again

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Raivotar

Queen of the damned the bitch of Hades… the serpent
Sixes tripled in her flesh
Lobotomize my thoughts, my mind… unleash me
Bring forth the perfect sin I crave

Escape from you to stay alive
Escape from you… the liar
Yet I crawl to you to feel alive
I crawl for same desire

And once again…
She is dancing on my grave
Whipping shivers down my spine
She is dancing on my grave
Pouring down the mercy of death

Queen of the tease the hot and cold… voracious
So deadly and deceiving eyes
Lobotomize my thoughts, my mind… release me

Bring forth the perfect death I crave

I feel you’re coming once again

She is dancing on my grave
Whipping shivers down my spine
She is dancing on my grave
Pouring down the mercy of death

She is dancing on my grave

Whipping shivers down my spine
She is dancing on my grave
Pouring down the mercy,
Pouring down the mercy,
The mercy of death

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Soul In Flames

I cannot tolerate the pain
Still feeling
Still-feeling
I cannot execute this pain
Still bleeding
Still-bleeding

Come and set my world afire
Give me all that I desire

I am a soul on fire
with flames within yet frozen to the bone
I want you… come into me
I’m holding onto desire
which binds it all that I will fall for
I want you… come into me

I cannot flee from the pain
Still hiding

Still-hiding
I cannot see from this pain
Still lying
Still-lying?

Come and set my world afire
Give me all that I desire

I am a soul on fire
with flames within yet frozen to the bone

I want you… come into me
I’m holding onto desire
which binds it all that I will fall for
I want you… come into me

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Pain Becomes Me

All this time I’ve been dreaming of it

All this time it’s been haunting in my head
Tempting me, inviting me to fall asleep in its arms
To fall from grace, to breathe its every-dimming dusk

Through my eyes
you could see the hurt I crave
Through my eyes
you’d see there’s nothing left to save
I heard you said: "There’s a light up ahead",

but I am heading towards a dead end
I just can’t say no,
I just can’t let go for it’s got me bent

I crave therefore I am and that is all I ever feel
I hope you’d understand…
One love, one pain, one enemy
I toast to misery as I dig into the devil’s bone
And for eternity the pain becomes me

and won’t leave me alone

Leave me alone

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Never Enough

I am waiting for the ricochet
as I’m reaching towards the shadow
I feel the scorching fire… redeemer

Desire to burn through alive… on and on and on

I am flesh and blood of the weakness
I am heart and soul… desire
Place my finger on the trigger
Make the darkness as my bride

My soul is spoken for to the one I’m breathing for
This pain for you is never enough
Craving forevermore for the one I’m dying for

Do you know how much I want you

My soul is spoken for to the one I’m breathing for
This pain for you is never enough
Craving forevermore for the one I’m dying for
It’s so much stronger than me
All that I want yet never enough

My soul is spoken for to the one I’m breathing for
This pain for you is never enough

Craving forevermore for the one I’m dying for
Do you know I’ve lost control

My soul is spoken for to the one I’m breathing for
This pain for you is never enough
Craving forevermore for the one I’m dying for
It’s so much stronger than me
All that I want yet never enough

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Love Controlled Despair

(I wish) To flee and to be gone… detached from myself
(I want) To see clearly what’s beyond the dreary and cold walls within my head

I exist in desire in my dark haven
I long to cleanse my soul of regrets

All I want is you to be there
and no longer feel dead inside

I’m in love controlled despair
Wish to sleep and leave all behind

(I wish) To set free and to forgive… An illusion of myself
(I want) To breathe and to truly live without the claws, the claws within my head

All I want is you to be there
and no longer feel dead inside
I’m in love controlled despair
Wish to sleep and leave all behind

I exist in desire in my dark haven
I long to cleanse my soul of regrets

All I want is you to be there

All I want is you to be there
and no longer feel dead inside
I’m in love controlled despair
Wish to sleep and leave, leave all behind

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The Living Dead

Eyelash dead on a pale white cheek
Couldn’t stay awake to bleed, to bleed
I drank long and deep from the fount unwillingly pouring it in
What I did suck from that scentless mouth was the taste of the nothing

What is the life for the dead at heart?

What is the life for the dead at heart?

What my soul is concealing
this life unforgiving cannot take away from me
It’s buried so deep within
And so I confide in you
For nothing compares to you
I live in the moment and in the faith that it gives

I wanted but could not outlive the pain… constantly taking the blame

I wanted but could not smother the flame and then I heard you scream out my name

I’ve found the life for the dead at heart
I’ve found the life for the dead at heart

What my soul is concealing
this life unforgiving cannot take away from me
It’s buried so deep within
And so I confide in you
For nothing compares to you

I live in the moment and in the faith that it gives

And as I close my eyes I see everything
So much clearer, clearer than ever before
And as I step inside to feel everything…
I am still the living dead
I am still the living dead

What my soul is concealing
this life unforgiving cannot take away from me

It’s buried so deep within
And so I confide in you
For nothing compares to you
I live in the moment and in the faith that it gives

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