Diary Of Dreams - Cholymelan

Cholymelan

01. Ein Wiegenlied
02. At The Border Of My Nation
03. Shattered Disguise
04. War On A Meadow
05. Holier Than Thou Approach
06. False Affection, False Creation
07. And Silence Still Remains
08. Phantasmogoria
09. To Conquer The Angel’s Laugh
10. Cholymelan

Ein Wiegenlied

A childish dream
Sacrifice - surrender
Surrender shame
Shame
Sins and sinners
Shame
My sins and sinners

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At The Border Of My Nation

The sky ranges the past
Enclosed in ancient walls
Captured in memories
A kingdom to survive
Immortal silence gathers illusions inside
I see the desert sand
Whirled up by the feet of war

A mournful eye in isolation
Blinded by a silent spell
Slaved to my debility

My future in those hands
That I can’t move
Like a victim
On his knees
The guidance still mine?

I take the blame

To find salvatation
And I await
The worst to come
The guidance still mine?

Tomorrow seems remote - so distant
My expectations evapurate

Leaving nothing to breathe
Another day to survive in silence

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Shattered Disguise

To the sound of your laughter
To the sound of your cries
Decays within silence

In the depth of your eyes

Numb expectations in my shattering voice
Face to face with existence
Ashes of hope in my shivering hands
Melting illusions like a bridge to my dreams

As I fall
Into the depth of your eyes
As I fall

Into your shattered disguise

Silhouettes slowly fading
As darkness dissolves
I detest what I sense
with my untouchable eyes

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War On A Meadow

Ancient sights to slave his longings
Lost and captive between two worlds
Have you seen this place before?
Have you seen my fields of joy?

But within his eyes the beauty fading
Sacrificed my life of lies
Torn apart to fade in cries

Hiding in the conflict of confusion
To quiver gently, torn apart inside
But facing sights that my lies can’t hide

Defaced by war to ruin my shelter
But still my memories cannot dissolve
But still I’m drowning deep inside
And all my hoping seems in vain

Have you seen this place before?

Have you seen my fields of joy?
Have you seen me sink into despair?

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Holier Than Thou Approach

Have you felt the forgiveness
He has spread across the land?
Have you felt the dignity

In each of the people’s heads?
But have you also seen the pain
Or did he give you eyes in vain?
Diseases, wars and shattered pride
And a nation dressed in black

I shiver as I read your words
They’re all depraved as I can see
Though you’ve got more children

Or better servants than you can use
You keep us blind, you keep us weak
You don’t allow to introspect

I say: You’re more depraved than thou appear
Holier than thou approach?

I shiver as I read your words
You don’t allow to introspect
Was it you to spread the blood

That once has flown in Garden Eden?
Though your servants still believe the words
That you’re supposed to have said

I say: You’re holier than thou appear
Holier than thou approach?

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False Affection, False Creation

Viscious words and false belief
Chains around my wrists
A sad sensation
The craving for life is gone
Intoxicate me in the trot of life
A yelling laugh decays my dream
A laugh to fear my deed

A false affection, a false creation

Suspicious eyes enslaved within
Imprisoned - shame and guilt
But still a child
Confessing all my sins
Elaborated, but still out of reach
My hands still shiver
My eyes don’t move
A deed you can’t neglect

A false affection, a false creation

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And Silence Still Remains

Eyes in silence
Eyes in the dark
A life in patience
To survive and surrender

Whatever I feel
Whatever I see is just
A sign of hope
A reflection of my memories
Words covered with dust
In a book to my left
An urge to read
No permission
Helpless eyes

Voices fading
I regret
I regret
I tilt my head
I close my eyes
Voice - louder
Temptation rising
I shiver
I’m a stranger in my own skin

I’ll survive
But for how long?
And silence still remains

Whatever my belief and identity will offer
I can never purify my thoughts

And still
I linger in temptation
Still not daring to reach out

The book
My dreams
Written out in words that I can’t read
My fingers write
What my mind is not capable to think of
And silence still remains
I’m a stranger in my own skin
But I’ll survive
My fingers write

What my mind is not capable to think of
But I’ll survive

But for how long…?

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Phantasmogoria

(Das Blendwerk)

And I meander in mortal lanes of festering
But still my childish instincts bloom
Screaming out my soul to the rhythm of the pendulum
Droplets of despair - apparition distorted

My lifeless pulse still rushing on
Pumping to the pendulum

Time’s elapsing while I’m waiting
Waiting in anticipation

And I still try to hold on
To what is fading from my eyes

My lifeless pulse still rushing on
Pumping to the pendulum

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To Conquer The Angel’s Laugh

To conquer the angel’s laugh

An urge implied
A captious offer in your hands
My hymne of praise denied
Disguising, fading scarlet of your belief
Drowning gently in commands
It’s your defeat

Mephisto, my fallen angel
Corrupted patience in your eyes

Your urge to rise denied
Your justice shivering in faded trust
Mankind like puppets in your hands
It’s our defeat

Mephisto, o Mephisto
Our shattered pride inhaled by you
Rejecting innocence
Betrayed by your own kind - a selfish deed

I’m calling you to conquer me
Rescue me

To conquer the angel’s laugh
Inside my head
An urge to feel temptation rise
A deed of pure illusions
To feel just silence move
And I’ll regret…

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Cholymelan

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