Diary Of Dreams - Freak Perfume

Freak perfume

01. Traum:A
02. The curse
03. O’Brother sleep
04. Chrysalis
05. Traumtänzer
06. Rebellion
07. Bastard
08. Amok
09. She
10. Verdict
11. Play God!
12. She and her darkness

Traum:A

Confront me one last time
to tell me all your lies
I wish I had the power
to make this anger go…

Lost something on the way

Something precious, thought I’d stray…

Beneath my kingdom, so they say,
sleeping dogs protect the way

And furthermore, I know I’ll suffer
from all the losses back on earth

And surely Kain had known it better
if he had heard my story end

Careful, but still avoiding
I feel your noble skin

These creatures you call human
have treated me like a schismatic
Please feed me with some truth
I hunger for your bitter words

Injured, but still standing

I know whose deed it is

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The curse

Plastic needles in my skin
Don’t ask me what they’re for
no clue except for pain and shock
You tied me to the bed to mock

My eyelids kept wide open
so I can see all that you do
All this liquid in my eyes
Come inside my world, friend, if you dare… the curse

It’s cold, I shiver while I sweat
room without a glimpse of sunlight
my head is shaved, my body bruised
Can’t feel my fingers, everything is numb… the curse

Your reality is twisted
It seems you just don’t notice
that all you do to me
can never touch me mentally,

but you can do all this to me
It’s not like it would matter
Much worse than, so much worse than that
I can’t get you out of my head

Where is that strong human will now?
guess there are things you can’t escape from…
I don’t know, but something isn’t right here…
I guess what you expect from me is fear… the curse

I stare… but there is nothing I can see
God knows, with only one hand I could…
your giggles reach me from next door
I wonder what is this all for?… the curse

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O’Brother sleep

These faces, noone embraces,
trade your intelligence for a smile

He who harasses - innocent masses -
forgives, to save your soul - in time

Desperate believers, emotion dealers
have never learned to cry liquid pearls

And silently these tribes of traitors
have captured everyone, including you

Have you commanded painfully?
Have you avoided endlessly?
Have you not seen these tired faces?
Have only left your gruesome traces!

These are my words to make an empire fall
and to raise a new, a better one

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Chrysalis

Read my lips and speak out loud
My fingertips are more than proud
To touch your skin, to feel your face

I’m drowning in your sweet embrace

Emptyness and incompleteness
Endlessness and in-defeat-less
has never been this little
No longer I could spare a thought

You said I’m welcome any time
Be sure I know all flaws are mine
Your promises are never lasting

for longer than it takes to say them.

Ease my pain and say again…
Tell me that you think the same

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Traumtänzer

Die Zeit steht still in diesem Raum
Doch merken’s andere Menchen kaum

Es steht die Luft hier in der Schwebe
Als ob der Wind-h-auch nicht mehr lebe
Die Stille schmerzt in meinen Ohren
Ich wünscht ich hätt Dich nicht verloren.

Während Träume sich erinnern
an die Zeit vor unserer Zeit
Vergißt Du all Sorge
Was Dir ein wenig Kraft verleiht

Du enthälst Dich vieler Dinge
erklärst Dich klug als Philosoph
Du entehrst so viele Dinge
Bist Dir hörig wie ein Zof!

Wirst Du mich nie verstehen?
Wirst Du denn nie verstehen?
Hast Du noch nie gesehen…
wie meine Augen glitzern?

Keiner mag Dir mehr vertrauen
Schenkt kein Wort Dir edler Gunst
Siehst Deinen Schatten schon verschwinden
Dort am Horizon im Dunst

…denn es ist Zeit, für eine neue Melodie,
für eine neue Phantasie, für eine neue Harmonie

Ich stehe aug und geh nun fort

an einen fremden, fernen Ort
Gesichter reden auf mich ein
So werd ich nie zu Hause sein.

Wirst Du mich nie verstehen?
Wirst Du denn nie verstehen?
Hast Du noch nie gesehen…
wie meine Augen glitzern?

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Rebellion

Ich möchte die Stille mein Eigen nennen.
Die Zeit rast, als hätte sie es eilig zu vergehen.
Raub den Menschen Ihre Illusion, so zerstörst du auch Ihr Streben

Es fehlen so viele Worte in einem Buch, so viele Töne in einem Stück Musik
Das Einzige woran ich wirklich zu glauben vermag ist die Wut.
Die größte Stärke des Menschen ist demnach auch seine Schwäche…

Ich möchte die Stille mein Eigen nennen. Mein Besitz.

Verstehst Du mich nicht?
Hörst Du mich nicht?

Avec des larmes dans la voix
Je t’écoute
Tu déformes la résignation
Je te demande cent fois
Comment était-ce possible?

La rébellion du silence
Fragile image
J’ai écrit ton nom.

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Bastard

Regret… that’s all it is!
But what for?

What is the purpose…
And yet you always look back.
You go to all these familiar places.
You see familiar faces.

Forgive and forget.

My tears dry in this desert
My laughter dies within your smile
I shall rest here for a while

For I have lost all that I loved.

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Amok

I put so much faith into you
I trusted everybody except myself

Tales of your behaviour
Like paper in a book

You try to be my saviour
How come you can not see the truth?

I am-ok, if I am-ok, you see…

Don’t be such a stranger -
I am-ok, but you’re in danger!
I walked for years to get this far
I have to tell you once again…

You say my dreams have all turned grey
How ignorant of you to say!
You claim that you can feel my pain
Insane of you to stay!

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She

She has the silence deep in her breasts embraced

She wears a perfume of a truly vicious taste.
She has the wisdom in her empathic eyes.
She knows the truth to all unspoken lies.

She says she’d sell her angel for a dream
She says that she is not who she might seem
She says that she has lost her self-esteem
She says that she will not give up her dream

She offers traitors her lap to feel like home.

She masters violence as if she fears noone.
She makes your anger turn into quiet tears.
She makes you laugh about intimate fears.

She hears the voices that tell me what to do.
She looks into our eyes, but only smiles at you.
She knows the warmth she feels is not for long.
She stopped to speak that’s why I end this song.

It’s kind of funny, you know…

’cause I’m not really here for your psycho games
Little demons make your eyes turn silver, you freak!
Your lips are turning blue
No, this is really not my kind of stimulation
No, this is not a proper treatment
Life? You can have it if you want!
It doesn’t mean anything to me, anyway, you freak!

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Verdict

Observe the strategies of war
I know you needed so much more
This is mental, so sentimental
Any way is my way
Anything I cared for you destroyed,
any promise null and void

Can’t you take my pain away. Tell me, can you?
Can’t we close our eyes forever. Help me, can you?

And now, you wonder why I’m asking you to go.

I’d give up anything to make your dreams come true
and if I’d pray I’d pray for you.
I’d leave your world to find a new one,
but don’t you dare misunderstand!

How can this be a sacrifice,
if you did not lose anything?
I know it isn’t fair,
but have we ever asked for fairness?

Save yourself from needless harm,
An overdose for now?
How can I talk about completeness,
if I consist of many pieces?

How can these walls come closer,
if there are really none?

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Play God!

What is this penetration?
If not some pre-salvation?
What is a mental attitude?

Why is my fever not in mood?

It’s me combining numbers
It’s me just playing God
It’s me who’s making rules here
I cannot come undone

Why don’t you compensate
my pain and all my hate
Have you really tried to compromise?

Have you never realized…

Accompanied by faces
that stare at you at night
I’m travelling into your sleep
until you wake up pale from fright

And after all you’ve been through
I sleep safe like a child
A coward in deceit

It’s garbage what you feed them… so

Consider penetration
as instant motivation
Regarding what you said to me
I think that you should never be forgiven

Don’t persecute me for what I’ve done
perplex, poisoned, predictable
Permissable disaster, patriotic smiles

predominant aggression
if you have (the) guts, resist my trace

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She and her darkness

My heart weighs minimum a ton
An army’s feet pounding on my head
Maybe I’ll wake up one day to notice

that all my life was just a dream…

And maybe I’ll be better of without you
You left me here with all my thoughts
I’d write a zillion words or walk a million miles
I’d sleep on broken glass just not to lose your smiles

I travel for you around the world
Collecting moments, o how absurd
To bring you beauty, to bring you joy

I wish I’d be a little boy

Where is that silence you promised me?
Why is that distance so close to me?
Why is your violence still hurting me?
Why are your eyes avoiding me?

Let me say thank you for all that you have given me.
Thank you for everything you’ve done.
Forgive me for saying one last thing:

I miss you and I hope you hear this song!

I travel for you around the world
Collecting moments, o how absurd
To bring you beauty, to bring you joy
I wish I’d be a little boy

I’m dying for you, can’t you see?
I’m lying for you to be free!
I hunger for you, ’cause I can’t eat!

I’d vanish for you in defeat!

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